So here I am, like a fucking teenager writing on my livejournal because I don't know what the fuck else to do...  Every time i try to stop it I think "I'm ruining a good thing, I'm ruining a good thing" but at first i didn't think it was ANYTHING at all..  How the FUCK did i manage to turn my ever so meaningless and perfect NOTHING into a.. "why do ( Read more... )

how so long ago i thought Hamed was going to dump me, and here we are, september.. and the feelings back.  The forgetting to call, only now he goes missing for days on end, and now he has no home but wont accept my help ( Read more... )

I have no idea whats going on with my life right now.  I know a few things about myself.  I am now a college student, who does mediocre instead of outstanding work, who works rediculous hours for a job she doesn't like, and sometimes, goes home to a boyfriend who she loves more than anything... but only when he feels like it.

I think Hamed is going ( Read more... )

To help me ( Read more... )

Un amore,
Sei felice per un momento,
Ma poi,
E cattivo,
Horribile...

Con questo, muoio

e lo so che cosa e morale...

ma non posso fermare.

Aiuto!

its the snow..
the snow brings everything
the love
the heartache,
and the spring shows you a new begining once all is melted and youve learned your lesson,
and as everyone knows..
i havent learned my lesson,
because i still want it..

i want it all

and it seems selfish..

but its the worst desire ive ever had.

so ive been ( Read more... )

i dont quite know whats going on lately..

my head is all sorts of fucked up..

such is life though..

i was at work today forever trying to sell gift cards.. but i gave up trying to sell them about an hour into it... hahahahahahhahaha mech... i made 15 dollars commision for that hour PLUS being clocked in as a hostess.. HAHAH TIP OUT!!! <3 IT ( Read more... )

can you take me over?

over again.....

im kind of asking for it this time..

but i kind of want it again.

i havent updated since 420 ( Read more... )