walking into an apartment the walls the same color as the floor dirty and looking at the window you know it gets cold in the winter and you have to say to yourself god damn i have to live here now you know people will visit and it will be fine it won't kill you but you just know that that window is going to kill you you will leave because of that ( Read more... )

make me shameless, i hate the discord.

i just want to record this ( Read more... )

i spend most of my time feeling absolutely crazy.

i wish everyone would come with their meyers-briggs personality type tattooed on their forhead. but if i've learned anything it's that i over analyze everything, to the point of paranoia. i don't know how to play games it's just not in my nature. but i guess i better learn if... anyway, on the ride home i felt like his silence was protecting me. i ( Read more... )

everything lives in your pillow. requests. make your requests. these indiana boys are going to be a big part of our lives. right now we're in the wings of cincinati, stretching. these little trips we've been making for five years now have just been an osculation exercise.

it's so nice when someone is an enigma, then they turn out to be really cool. it's so wonderful inside, i wish it were out. last night i dreamed about sandy and ugo but mainly ugo. i was standing outside of his not in real life closet and he woke up and then i had to hide but then he saw me so i told him there was a scavenger hunt so he decided to ( Read more... )

the really attractive boy at the party who stands around drinking wine from the bottle. he even drinks wine when he's alone. it's all over his floor. i spilled it on his floor. he doesn't like jazz. doesn't like theatre. what does he like? not much. he likes his moods. from what i can tell anyone who's worth a shit is an alcoholic. he's an ( Read more... )

literally all my mother says to me anymore is 'we're getting low on cigarettes' and 'i made a grocery list'.

i need to write more not as in plays or bullshit or whatever, just in general constantly be writing. i'm really tired right now. like, sick tired. simon and i went to the bank earlier and i didn't wanna go inside so he went in by himself then i just started crying like bawling like violently keening and then it started thunderstorming, like ( Read more... )