Neon shines through smoky eyes tonight It's 2 am - I'm drunk again it's heavy on my mind I could never love again so much as I love you Where you end where I begin is like a river going through Take my eyes take my heart I need them no more If never again they fall upon the one I so adore Excuse me please one more drink Could make it strong cause I ( Read more... )

r.e.a.l is a local band from ohio, they're really good; go to mp3.com and download some of their songs. my friend meghan told me about them a couple months ago and i've liked them ever since. i use microsoft explorer, so it looks ok on my screen, but if you have aol you need to maximize ( Read more... )

hello!<3 wow long day today. i got up around 1:30 [hehe] and walked down to this hair place with jade & i got my eyebrows done.. and then i went back to jades for a lil bit and showed her how to make layouts. haha i put in one of her contacts, omg i had no idea what i was doing. it was easier getting in than out. yeah then i went home for awhile, ( Read more... )

yeah sorry i haven't updated. the other night i went to the movies with meghan & ryan, they had to tell me to shutup every 2.5 seconds because i was 'talking too loud' ;( we saw signs or w/e. i couldnt really get into the movie but i guess it was okay. then yesterday me and jade went to burger king, then we went back to her house and chilled for a ( Read more... )

This is where I say I've had enough and no one should ever feel the way that I feel now. A walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises and I don't believe that I'm getting any better. Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring and I'm thinking awful things and I'm pretty sure that few would notice. And this apartment is starving for an ( Read more... )

yeah, i made myself a weezer layout but i cant find anyone with the codes to give me. fuckers. anyway, i'd like to give a little shoutout to my girl mandi; [flirtationz] i know shes away but still i <3 her for helpin me through some shit i was goin through the other night. and yeah i wanna say hi to my favorite aussie cat; [kitcatxox] lol yeah anyways ( Read more... )

eugh, don't ask what was up last night. there's alot of things i don't put down in here just because i don't want people reading it. so i think i'm going to make another journal and only give it out to certain people. i'll to you's when i make one, but don't ask for the link because i dont want to have to say no, so if i don't give you the link, ( Read more... )

once again, my world slips and crashes again. how many times do i need to scream and cry until someone hears me? god, i can be in a crowded room of people and still feel alone. and then i feel bad when i'm upset, like i'm droning other people with my guilt and my problems. I live with so much guilt. So much shame. So much pain. I can't fool myself ( Read more... )

i just got back from the doctors.. she kept asking me all these personal questions about if i had alot of friends and stuff. I tried so hard to not show that im lonely, but i guess she saw through me. She said that i may want to think about going to a pshycologist or w/e because she thinks i may be depressed. I may be depressed but theres no fuckin ( Read more... )

eugh i feel like shit. and i need to go to get my physical later too. yup, my mom made an apt for me to get my physical on a friday night, cool eh? yeah well last night at lindsays was soo much fun. i didn't sleepover because she needed to work the next day, but we went to her bros hockey game & on the way there me, linzy, her mom & dad were making ( Read more... )