So instead of hte beach, I'm thinking the zoo now? But see...I want to be out late and walk around pretending to be a whore in front of the hurricane. Maybe someone will try to pick me up again and this time I can me like "YES! I'm legal! And NO! I'm not going to fuck you!" People dont believe me when I tell them Im under 18. So we'll have to find ( Read more... )

I'm not going to say hello ( Read more... )

I'm starting to worry about whats going on between me and a lot of people. Lately everything has seem a little askew. Just like...I'm not clicking the same way I used to. I used to be able to read his mind and now I can't tell what hes thinking at all. I used to be able to finish her sentences but now shes not saying the same things. Conversation ( Read more... )

I feel like I've been letting down so many people lately. My friends and parents especially. I odnt like to feel like a failure, or someone that you can't trust. But maybe thats just true. I fuck up so much. And I can rarely say no to anything. God damn this fucking submissive personality. I dont see why...I seem like such a fucking strong willed ( Read more... )

So while this mohawk does ofer me some relief from the summer heat, it aslo: 1) Does not suit my head 2) is hard to put up and 3) The sides are JUST TOO SHORT. Who was I kidding when I thought I could trim it myself? Well, whats done is done that thats that. But still...if I could turn back time...

(a lot would be different)

Its too hot.

so for my birthday I'm thinking: Good friends, hotdogs, marshmallows, the beach and MAYBE some getting drunkedness. Oh, and no mention of HOW OLD IM GETTING. Because I'm that much closer to death. Yes?

"...As he watches her walk away he feels a loss. 'How is it possible,' he thinks, 'to miss a woman whom he kept at a distance so that when she was gone he would not miss her?' Only then does he realize that wanting part of her and not all of her had hurt them both and how he cannot justify his actions except that...well...it was life ( Read more... )

I do things I dont mean a lot. Maybe because I'm crazy? I dont know.

But...I'm sorry.

And...Im in love with someone.

I need to shower.

I remember when I didn't even know the word angst. Now seems to be everyother word I hear, say, or type.

I just thouht that was interesting.

And by interesting I mean pathetic.

SO Im pretty tired of you. You take yourself way too seriously, even if you don't like to let everyone else think that. The thing I can't stand is that I'm still attracted to you, it's completely idiotic. I hate how you correct my apostrophies, I hate how you judge me so fucking much, I hate how hypocritical and selfish you are. I hate how you ( Read more... )