i hate being awake sometimes. try try try. bed.

fucking lame. goodnight.

i have to leave tommorrow and im not liking the idea of driving north at all. i wsh that i could be here as long as humanly possible or until she boots me out. but either way i dont want to go back to the reality that i know in my hoime state. i miss my bros and thats about it. they are having a great time in Boston right now and im LITTLE jealous ( Read more... )

comfort in my own skin is not something that i have experienced today. i think i'll feel better later. well i hope so. but tonight is just another night i'll spend alone coming to terms that it is that way for and least physically. but soon.. well yeah... i'll be truly happy.

today... well today was the day that i cut off my beautiful locks. i feel and look just as odd. its colder outside without the layer on my head. but at least im wearing my pants. hahahaha. i just wantt to play some more shows or ust practice. as long as i am beating the shit out of some drums i dont care what i am doing to fufill that need ( Read more... )

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i wish everyday would consist of this last week and the remainder of the days that i have left with the one that i love. i cant imagine what it will be like on the 2nd, and quite frankly i care not to think about it because it gives me the worst feeling ive had in a long time.

nate

i hate being poor. i hate breing the only one left here at USM for the next week and having a final the day before the semester ends. im waiting for break, ill be poor through most of it, but it matter. i just want to be in the Christmas spirit.

shit im out, im bored and bummed.

Late nights in my dorm are by far the most relaxing thing in the world right now. im waiting for these last couple weeks to rap up as soon as possible. i dont know what it is about her but its something amazing, indescribable. the only thing that could possibly make this night more relaxing is crawling into bed and not be alone. i hate waiting for ( Read more... )

Its so late and i just got back from practice. these late night rock outs are starting to take their toll on me. im more tired than i have ever been, but oh well. soo i will be 440 miles away and with the one person that have been wait for waht seems like an eternity now to see. i hope i dont let her down, and she loks at me and says who the hell ( Read more... )