There used to be only one thing in my life that I would never talk about. Never have, never will. Friday, some one said something to me and it will never be repeated. There are now two things in my life that will forever be pushed as far away from me as possible. I try to pretend it never happened, but it did and it haunts me to this day. I'm going ( Read more... )

A lot has happened since July 28th (last time I updated) you couldn't possibly begin to understand. One thing is for sure, I'm going to start taking care of myself more and I've already started. I haven't masturbated in about 10 days or so, wtf? Haha, yeah. That's gotta change soon. I'll fill you in on how it goes. I feel better. Thank you. You all ( Read more... )

As my stomach quickly turns inside out and it swallows itself, I realize what went wrong. The sweat that dripped caused by the lust in the moment, I have nothing left. Dried and empty with nothing to give, not even at attempt at bringing this back to life. What's left of a ruined empire that once stood so high it was admired by all but has fallen ( Read more... )

Wow... I actually cried today. I pulled over on my way home at like 4 a.m. and just let it out. Very complicated thing to try and explain but at the same time it's just too many things at once. My birthday is tomorrow... Awesome.

Hustle & Flow is the second most overrated movie of all time behind Wedding Crashers. They bother were let downs and I'm very disappointed. It's hard out there for a pimp? You should have went to college then. Stfu.

Things have been insane lately. I'm just not sure what's going to happen in many aspects of my life. Just about every relationship I have right now, whether it be friends, family and even the relationship with my girlfriend have all been pretty rocky. I'm trying to work everything out but when it's all at once it's difficult when they're coming ( Read more... )

I discovered a new fear tonight...

Oh yeah, FUCK YOU!

I started to really think about how I use the word "hate" and I came to the conclusion that I only, truly hate three people. Not bad considering all the assholes there are in the world. Two of the three for pretty much the same reason and the other is just "special" I guess you can say because they have their characteristics that aren't like any ( Read more... )

WHY AM I SO JEALOUS?!?!? TEHRE ISN'T EVEN ANYTHING THERE ANYMORE ( Read more... )

I'm tired of being the nice guy. No longer am I watching my words, I call em like I see em. I look forward to one thing and that is college... Far away from here. It's my turn to change I guess and I've already begun.