life is so dull right now... but something BIG is comming... i can feel it... and i can't wait to see what it is...

school: the morning... Kenny gave me a two liter of diet coke this morning... [[thanks]] and i was almost tardy, but i made a quick save.
psychology: was kind of odd... i have to re-do a project.. i think Mandea was mad at me cause she ( Read more... )

today i spent forever shopping... i don't like shopping... there is so much stuff i want but i can't get... and i feel guilty for wanting it... i didn't get any jeans because i am too chubby, none fit right... and all the shoes skipped my size... but i got a really cute purse
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omg i'm scared. last weeks there were alot of police and we were on lock down and stuff. and today a boy got stabbed. oh my. so much for a positive learning enviroment. and then last night i was in the car w/ philip and lauren and we got hit!! it was scary. this is a scary week ( Read more... )

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glah. so not much has been going on. i slept over lauren lanes last night. went to school. went to swimming. cameran got his ass beat by Even/Kerry, w/e that just makes him hotter. then i went straight to indoor soccer. we won. i got to see my sexxaaay ash bash. and couch Cez did good too. then i came home and didn't do anything great ( Read more... )

I want to kno what people have to say/think about me... Please please please do it ( Read more... )

w/e my night wasn't great. no need in complaining. my cell phone sucks. it didn't ring and it didn't leave a # of the people who called me so my mom calls to try and get in touch w. me and she can't. i was home like 40 minutes late. oh well. but yeah i got my phone taken away. but get this when i walk in the door my mom has MY journal in her hand ( Read more... )

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this song goes out to someone special:

(Fuck with my heart)
I'll teach you what it's like.
(To be so used)
That you'll have to clean.
That dirt stuck in
Your plastic finger nails.
And just the scent of you is enough
(To make me sick)

And all I know is revenge is sweet when...

You know that you are worthless
And I am better than
The games that you play princess ( Read more... )

gash. yesterday on the way home from swim practice Anna Matt and Lauren were all talking about being in love and like telling their stories. it made me relize how much i want to be in l o v e. It's just not fair. hmm. So, what i want for christmas is an ACTUAL BOYFRIEND...

btw... all 4 of my brothers are home for the holidays... gah!!