It is very clear to me when I look at him that I am still in love with Curtis.  I don't know why I am, but there doesn't seem to be any way to completely get rid of the feelings.  You would think that hearing from his ex would help.  I did believe and respect everything she said.  It did help for a while--knowing the truth about the situation, that ( Read more... )

It's not that I don't want to write.  I do.  I've been running on auto-pilot now for the last month, unable to think or breathe or most importantly--sleep.  Last night Current Man in Life took one look at me and said: "Um, you look exhausted."  Great.  Well, he is right.  I am so tired that I now have the capability of falling asleep anywhere.  I  ( Read more... )

Everyone's at a meeting.  Some time to write and some time for peace and quiet.  This is not something I often experience these days.  I am constantly busy at work, which has really helped me.  I don't have as much time to think about my life, and I've been granted a lot more time to actually use my mind.  I'm only in this department for another ( Read more... )

I didn't write yesterday--I'm sorry.  Life was chaotic here in The Office.  I DID take the time to send this angry letter to Starbucks, though.  Thought I would share:

Having worked in customer service for eight years as a server and then at a staffing agency, I am very forgiving of those in the service industry. I don't always expect exceptional ( Read more... )

Sorry--I'll work on it.  I was reading a blog today that talked about the whole TMI situation.  In fact, due to insulting comments from readers, he decided to end his blog.  His last post was upsetting.  How will I know this person if he doesn't write about his life on a daily basis?  A lot of people judge bloggers and non-fiction writers because ( Read more... )

I forgot to mention that Michael Johns was voted off of American Idol.  I am pretty sure that the contest is fixed because that was absolutely the stupidest decision America has ever made collectively (with the exception of George Bush's presidency).  Every season that I watch this stupid show the moment of infuriation always takes place around ( Read more... )

This was absolutely not supposed to happen.  I am not upset that it has, but definitely weirded out, and confused as to why it doesn't feel stranger than it does.  This is proof that once you feel something strong for a person it never really goes away even if you were positive that it had.  I assume this is just a delayed rebound, but it feels ( Read more... )

I haven't been able to get it out of my mind.  I have officially been affected and I'm not sure if I like it.  It is comforting to know that I can in fact be a sexual being again.  Past encounters since the "cheatage" have left me feeling fat and gross and undesirable.  But not anymore apparently--not anymore.  Life is SO weird.  Things and ( Read more... )

Um  I have a tendency to get wasted and make bad decisions--but those decisions feel so good when I'm making them.  This one was pretty ridiculous, though, even for me...If you knew me in high school and read my previous entry, you'll know who I hung out with last night and perhaps you can even guess what bad/wonderful decision I made.

Everyone is at an HR party and I'm holding down the fort until they return.  Then I get to leave and enjoy the first truly beautiful day in Boston!  So excited!  I'm hanging out w/Adrienne and AJ tonight.  I honestly don't think I've seen them since freshman year of college when we all went back for a brief "reunion."  (My five year reunion is ( Read more... )