I'm confused by the way you say and do things. I dont know whether I should take things and filter it for lies or believe everything u tell me. I'm scared to open up to u and give u all of me. I'm very vulnerable which causes me not to trust easily. I dont necessarily think its u I dont trust, it could be just a personal problem I have with myself ( Read more... )

I don't like valentines day. I try to push the idea that its just another day...it doesnt help

right now i'm debating on whether or not i should say something to you. i feel like i shouldnt, but then i change my mind and i feel like its been long enough and i should say something. you really upset me that night. but if the one you were in conflict with has forgiven you, shouldnt i? i feel like i should say something. high school is coming to ( Read more... )

 people change in high school.  more times for the worse then good.  and if you were to ask me if i've changed i would say i've matured.  but judgemental?  or is it just being truthful?  and the scary part is asking if i've changed for the worse or better and having someone say they dont know.

i HATE high school. 19 weeks 

I really wanted to go to Orlando this weekend.  Actually cut that.  Not "weekend," more like just Saturday.  But no, my plans, which have been for like four month, weren't able to be followed through with.  I'm 18, I'm a good driver, and my parents have so much respect for me.  So why can't I go.  It's not even about the whole trip and what I would ( Read more... )

another boy,
another asshole,
another broken ashley.

never expected it.

 what did you do to yourself?  i dont understand how changing a couple of physical things could change a whole person.  i'm so confused and i dont understand why you would do it.  i can't speak to you and i can't even look at u for long without getting upset.  why'd you have to change.  physical change is ok, but dont change whats deep inside you ( Read more... )

i do miss everyone. i really do.

austin and i are over. all done. 11 months. and i cant say i'm that upset. why?

i'm so lost right now. i have no clue where to go from here.