emotionally healthier than i've been in a while

you know how after repeating a word thirty or forty times it starts to lose all meaning? I find myself doing the same with all his especially saccharine love notes (reading them and rereading them) until they're finally rendered meaningless. This is all done unknowingly, of course.

:)

i like my journal again

"This inescapable duty to observe oneself; if someone else is observing me, naturally I have to observe myself too; if none observes me, I have to observe myself all the closer."

- Kafka (the franz), November 7, 1921