I'm part of america, i tiny sliver. Though i'm just a piece im just as giulty as my neighbors- for forgetting. Forgetting whats not right there in my backyard. Im not innocent. Not nemore, theres a war which i turn a blind eye too. Noone is patriaotic, not until there reminded of how we are unified. Does a death really need to take place to open ( Read more... )

haha- im so excited im gonna be a lifegaurd- i started training today- its pretty crazy- i mean all weekend long- mayn- but its gonna b worth it!!! yay! im just worried about smelling like chlorine all the time- and not getting to see kevin- am i pathetic or what?!?!?! it seems like i already have no time- i mean jeez i miss my friends too already ( Read more... )

im determined to be nice... i know i can be super mean at times... and i think i need to up my meds r sumthing- bcaus my moods have been all over the place lately and i dont know how even im going to react to sumthing nemore.... im kinda scared- i was thinking i dunt wanna b on this stuff nemore- but then i mean if its getting worse- it sux.....

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 whoaaa thats rite- one month with kevin- i am so a commitment person now- kinda creepy... neways- i heard this rumor about me today- im not to thrilled about it either- well supposedly i slept w/ this guy and he has a tape of it and its on the internet- hummm- ya really seems true when im a virgin and the kid telling this i havent seen in lilke a ( Read more... )

This gangrene creepin up my body,

black heartache in your memory,

someday you'll see the pictures,

maybe at the table of my autopsy.

Murder one your killing me,

for this theres no first degree,

money cant fix your problems now,

you have a black bag on your shoulder.

flashlights glowing from the search party,

girl is missing- nothing left of me....

I miss andrea- i need someone intellectual to talk to- i mean i have friends who r- but its always better w/ her!!! I was thinking today- isn't it wierd how mankind is in a constant struggle to achieve normalcy- when that exact definition is inpossible in itself to define. When did this happen? i mean back in the day of socrates it was thought ( Read more... )

     ok- just for an update- i cut my hair all off today and highlighted it- major change- and i bonded more w/ my little sis- i took her to see ella enchanted and then out to eat- it was really fun actually- and quite a good movie- this has been an excellent day! now for the randomness:

I was ur angel ( Read more... )

im digging how everything is going so wondeful- i dont want to jinx it either- but i feel like sumthigns going to give soon.... my luck cant stay this good- i dont think ive ever been a good enough person to deserve this! i mean it seems like no matter what i do- thigns stay perfect w/ kevin- although im not trying to do nehting bad- thigns have ( Read more... )

theres this part of a song- its replaying over and OVER and OVER in my head- these r the words " you are the smell before rain, you are the blood in my veins...." is that not beautiful.  i know im crazy and all- but really have u ever noticed that the smell outside right before it rains- is so wonderful? that it really is so distint and sometimes ( Read more... )

in hell.... haha- really- practice till 10- every day this week- w/ the exception of today- spring show is killing me- i hate it yet i love it- it will b worth it on stage tommorow- but right now ive gotten sick- i dont have time for hmwk or cleaning (driving me nuts) or kevin (also making me sad- its been 4 days since ive seen hime now =( ) so yes ( Read more... )