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I look back now and I see high school as very distant and bland. There are shadows of memories, but a lot of it is gone. I think I'm happy about that. I used to say that 13 was my worst time, because of the reactions I experienced from experimentation. But, now I guess 2002-2006 was pretty bad as well. A mechanism in my mind, that I never will ( Read more... )

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a new day, just like the last 60ish days. Wake up, go online til about 3 when I then shower and wait. Whether I job search, play WoW, read gossip columns, or stare at fb, it's always the same thing. Still no job, despite really needing one ( Read more... )

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give up at least a hundred for one?

this demon that keeps coming back to me. I'll just drink my sadness. put it off a bit a and just be unhappy a bit longer. i wanna be fucking wasted right now...hold on, ill get there...

so my hamster was acting weird yesterday. he always sleeps in this one attachment to the cage. and he was sleeping in the cage, not the attachment. so i knew something was wrong.

i took him out and held him until he passed away in my hands. :(

i can finally hit that note. how long has it been? 7 years ( Read more... )