I have journaled in a while so here is the low-down on life out McPherson way. I have been wrapping up my last major assignments this week which has been stressful like none other, but for the most part now EVERYTHING IS DONE! {finally ( Read more... )

I woke up at nine when My roommmate called her parents in Japan. I wanted to sleep so badly because I hadn't gone to bed till 3 and besides Sat mornings don't exist to me, but her chatter in Japanese kept me awake till ten. I was secretly glad when the next people she tried to call weren't home. I felt bad for her though, I could tell she was ( Read more... )

Things these days just seem to get worse and worse. As I watch the avalanche of moral decline in the United States it is hard to hold out any hope of things ever really returning to the way they were. This once Christian nation, has now separated morals from law, and embraced a legal relativism that redefines truth with each popular trend. Society ( Read more... )

So I wrote six mother's day cards for my mom today. It was fun ( Read more... )

Yesterday I was sooooooooo angry. I have been waiting for a long time to get my belly button pierced and I was going to go with a friend to Hutch to finally do the deed, but she told me she wasn't going to take me because it might get infected and she was afraid it wouldn't heal because my body didn't have enough nutrients... Which to me is ( Read more... )

I have to go to work in five minutes so this entry will be brief. I have counted on journaling a lot recently but have only just begun to write back here. I guess I the sense of connection with Champaign. I wasn't going to return home for the summer, but I see how much I need to. All the things I resented about Champaign are still there, mainly ( Read more... )

So yesterday I screwed up big time and ended up hacking my guts out during choir rehearsal. I did drink something afterwards. I really am eating more. I feel like I eat all the time. I eat and eat and eat... but I still lose weight. I hate eating. I hate all the trying. I just want it all to go away. I have a note from a Mercy graduate and I just ( Read more... )

well, it's been two days since my whole revelation that God really wants to change my life, and will and everything. And I DO BELIEVE IT- really I do, but I am just so tired. I wake in the morning and just want to go back to sleep. Especially at meal times I want to sleep and sleep through all my meals. What is the use in finding energy to eat ( Read more... )

Today while I was studying God spoke to me. I was thinking about how I know that I am suppose to fully depend on God for everything in my life, but I always felt like I couldn’t because I needed people. God couldn’t take the place in my heart that my parents gave up, and couldn’t restore my life, from the devastating effects of the sin and self- ( Read more... )

Sometimes I just want to give up. So what if I have an eating disorder, so what if I deal with my pain differently than you do? It just makes me mad... I fight this thing- I do, but all I've done for so many years is fight and it is not fair ( Read more... )