Somedays it is all that I can do just to wake up and bring Him praise. Everything around here seems so big, but I know that is so small compared with the bigness of my God. So even though the battles are harder won today, the world at least seems much darker, I am willing my body to get up. I am forcing my mind to "take every thought captive" (2nd ( Read more... )

soooooo fat.

I ate a 1,000 calories today and I feel huge. I want to keep losing weight, but I know that this is unhealthy. I hate filling this stuffed. now I am griping- a whining picky eater... what a drip.

So you finally get used to the idea of things going one way and then God comes and shakes everything up again. Except for this change is really an answer to prayer... it is just frightening ( Read more... )

God is the only one coming, and he has already paid the price for everything there through the blood of his son on the cross.

Pam Larson

hopeful- and yet not wanting to hope. That is how I feel at this very moment. So very full of hope and yet trying to keep myself from expecting too much. I vacilate to quickly between extreme hope and despair, but I need to remember that central to everything is God. He will accomplish His plans for the life He has give me in His perfect timing ( Read more... )

In case I forget I need to post this email in my journal... I made these commitments and boundaries, and even though they are going to be hard to keep all the time. I need to do them ( Read more... )

I really should be studying right now. But the thing is I don't care. Maybe I am over confident, but I am pretty sure that God will help through all these finals, and with my confidence in Him where can I go wrong. School is not the most important thing right now. It hasn't been all year. This year has been so much more about my heart position. I ( Read more... )

There are only a few more days of college to suffer through... But I am being to dread home to. Location is not really as much the issue as I want to make it. I realize that when I am lying in my bed planning how tommorow will be better, and I will eat more and I will pray more etc... and then never doing it. My heart needs to be softened, God must ( Read more... )

I am so tired of comprimising. so tired. sometimes I could just cry.

If I have to spend another minute in McPherson it will be too long. Sometimes I just want to run away from this year and never come back, but I do love it here. It is just that for one I am so sick- I bable on and on in my mind about how fat I am, everything has become about food, but I am never hungry. The other thing is that despite the food ( Read more... )