1. Shock and Denial

Disbelief. That's all that kept popping into my head. How could something like that happen to us and shatter anything and everything that we ever had? 5 years is a long time. For weeks on end, I told myself that it wasn't true. That it was all just a dream. Boy, was I wrong.

2. Pain and Guilt

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enough was enough. i am too damn understanding. last night, was the last straw for me. i tend to give people to much credit all the time. giving people the benefit of the doubt and make up "excuses" for them. i seriously felt like such an idiot last night. i said don't bother. took a breathe. and felt tears streaming down my face. i realized that ( Read more... )

i can't believe its already been 6 months. half a year. wow. i cant believe that i have actually stuck to my word and not fallen into something that is no longer right for me anymore ( Read more... )

im going to move on now. no holding back. i guess truth be told, i still expected too much from you in the end. i expected you to still want me to be apart of your life. but its okay. i understand. When you and I fell in love, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, i thought that love like that could only happen once which is why every ( Read more... )

This book is continually speaking volumes to me. I barely got to page 65 when I read this and felt like this book was exactly what I needed right now ( Read more... )

Someone said something to me the other day that I took to heart, "You seem so happy, Dina.' Truth be told, I am. Yes, things were really hard for me these past couple of months. I had to deal head on with certain situations that I never expected to. I hit rock bottom. I didn't believe that anyone could understand my situation or what I was going ( Read more... )

you know what, if something is on your mind just say it ( Read more... )

well for once in my life, I made an honest decision of my heart and my own being. Tonight I could have done something unlike me. I was set on it. Plans were made. Discussed. Finalized. I got dressed up. Make-up, hair, the whole deal. However, when it finally came down to it, I said no. I stopped it dead in its tracks 10 minutes before. What the ( Read more... )

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well its been practically a year since i have written in this. and i seriously forgot what I had even started to write in this in the first place ( Read more... )