Joe

[lxbean]

My college boyfriend, Joe, died very suddenly of a pulmonary embolism on Friday night

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[harnessphoto]

Holy shit :( How tragic and unexpected. I am so sorry :(

[varpulis]

My very first love from high school died his senior/my junior year of high school in a car accident. I remember the pain I felt to this day and can only imagine how you feel. I'm so sorry for your loss but I'm glad you both found some peace in your situation before it was too late.

You're in my thoughts.

[shalinerd]

Your writing about grief is so moving and evocatively expressed it makes me hurt for you. I wish there were fewer reasons these days for you to be feeling it. So sorry, Alex.

[lxbean]

thank you. it has been a time saturated with loss.

maybe soon enough, i can write as clearly about happiness.

please give tirik (did i spell his name right? i still think of him as little trevor) a kiss for me.

[shalinerd]

I really and truly hope the soon is soon.

Little Trevor/Tirik (both suit him, in my mind) gets kisses from everyone he meets. He is the sweetest. I will be sure to give him some on your behalf.

[djmadadam]

The Universe has definitely separated your path from others lately. It's a lot to sort through. Go easy on yourself.

[lxbean]

that's such a gentle way to put it; thank you for those words.

it has been two months of deep loss, but i try not to cluster them all in my head because each loss represents a particular being who i loved in a particular way.

that and if i think about losing rosie and joe in the past two months, i am too overwhelmed to remember how grateful i am to have had both of them in my life.

[colorwhirl]

I'm sorry, again.

But I'm also very glad that you have such visceral memories of Joe to hold close to your heart.

A lesson I learned on my birthday, as I rode a train through the desert is that when life brings us into the desert, it is rarely a place we will stay. Deserts are only traveling-through spaces.