well its 4:40 AM. i went to bed around 12 cause I didnt feel good. :-( yea. 2 kids called my house like 5 times at 4 AM, high asking what toss the salad means.... Me, I explained it to them lol. I feel really wierd right now. My eyes are seeing everything straight but inside my head it feels like the room is spining around. (happens sometimes) ( Read more... )

la nothing to do. i wanna play ragnarok but the server is maintanenced. gotta stay up so i can sleep through chemotherapy tomorrow. :-/ eh i guess i will try to figure out how to make this screwed up skill build for my merch work. if anyone from RO is reading this ( Read more... )

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been throwing up and feel like shit. (not chipper)

its finally the day i have been dreading all this time. Its been 2 months, 2 weeks, 2 days since my last heavy chemo dosage. In 3 hours and and 50 minutes that will all change. I start the chemo all over again. FUCK.

been hanging around doing nothing lately. yea. puttign chipper as my mood because i have no idea what it is.

Bold the things that apply to you and add three [3] things about yourself at the end ( Read more... )

well the power went out yesterday for 12 hours. The power-outage started at 6 and I left my house to go down the block to power-abundant Taylor's house at 11. The power at my hosue was off from 6PM to 5AM. blah. Also since my neighbors have a giant patio in their back yard and no grass... water poured into my basement. We were helpless because ( Read more... )

well today was the last day of school for me (everyone else still has finals until thursday) This year flew by even though i wasnt here for most of it. It's amazing how in just one moment my life changed so drastically... I learned alot this year about life and people ingeneral. I learned some people are jsut born ass holes i.e. Conor. I am ( Read more... )

well i dont know what emotion i am feeling right now. I am sad/pissed off about cancer. I try not to show it though so my parents don't think i am suicidal or anything. The fact is I wish i was dead. 2 weeks from today (technically is today because its past 11:59 AM) is hell on earth. FUCK CANCER. well getting off that note, the past 2 weeks ( Read more... )