4 weeks..... why me? fuck. i don't want to go back to how i felt during my first 3 months of heavy chemo; waking up every morning and wanting to kil myself, being to tired to do anything, throwing up.... god the list goes on and on. atleast i have 1 month before it happens. I am currently in maintanence period of my chemotherapy stages. This ( Read more... )

i hung out with kristen, tom and dj today. we watched signs at tom's house. time flew by while i was at tom's. finally at around 8:25 kristen and dj had to leave. i rode my bike with them as they walked home. THEN i finally figure out how to make my comments show on my journal and not have them emailed to me when i got home. ^.^ i am a dumbass ( Read more... )

well on friday i hung out with a bunch of people downtown. I sat around outside castella for like 2 hours with grube, stapler, dave, sean. then we saw eric vermont and some other kids talking to the police. apparently this kid with real tight pantts and a shirt that says stop rascism was jumped. they thought it was eric vermont because he has a ( Read more... )

well its thursday for anotehr 15 minutes. i wish it was saturday though cause tomorrow i get chemotherapy.

school sucks. blah tomorrow miss johns comes back from senior projects. today i think i failed a science test. :-/ well on a better note: me dj tom and kristen walked home. then i went to the 7-11 with dj. Then i hung out on her proch with ehr for like 3 hours. it thundered and i saw her famed room/baby pics. then i went home and senor duffy ( Read more... )

we'll my upstairs room is being re-done. i m getting completely new carpet, wall paper, and color of trim. Once its done i am goinbg to move my bed and clothes drawers around. hopefully i will have room for a chair and my tv. so today my english tutor came (the bitch) and i spat in her water that she specifically asks for every time she comes ( Read more... )

well its 1:12 AM and there is absolutely nothing to do. I can't take any of this shit anymore. Cancer is getting the best of me. the chemo and all their side effects have me worn-out. Also besides that i have to catch up in school. Life is such crap. Worst of all my parents and all my relatives all act overprotectively about me. Let me live ( Read more... )

wow another boring weekend doing practically nothing downtown. Haddonfield is so boring it isn't even funny. The highlight of my night was scaring DJ and Kristen the whole walk back to DJ's house. (they got followed by some drunk people in a silver honda element. (what a crappy car)) My mouth sores are really starting to hurt. I can barely eat ( Read more... )

i wont be updating my LJ until school starts. i need to finish all my make-up work from when i was sick. i am overworked and dont have time to update this or check it :-/