Alright good news to everyone out there that tracks my goals yesterday was a complete success, here is how things break down ( Read more... )

As has become the patern of my life I am in a downward spiral. This is not really anything new since I typically have long periods of depression that simply will not let go no matter how much I want them to. However this time I have every intent of beating it back ( Read more... )

You come in forms of vivid kind ( Read more... )

With constant grain I move on ( Read more... )

Sometimes we are no good for ourselves. To everyone I have talked to in the last twenty-four hours I thank you for your support on my attempts to work through some issues. If you don't know what it is that I am talking about well then it doesn't pertain to you and you were of no help what so ever ( Read more... )

Lydia's Goals for Today
Have a good day.
Talk to A greek goddess
Buy a Printer cartridge
Send of taxes
Get my car fixed
Deposit Money
Meet someone new
Eat good food
Spend no money.

What I ask of everyone out there
Tell me your 5 favorite songs.
Tell me your 5 favorite foods.
Tell me when you want to see me next.

Good day to the world

Last night was probably the single most relaxing moment I have had in 2 ( Read more... )

I have been gone for a time, but not without good reason. I have been seeking some sort of resolution. I think I have found a bit of peace. When I was sure I found peace and wasn't yet still restless over my former love, I chose to tell someone I was begining to care for. That is the explanation of my absense ( Read more... )

So here I am and it occurs to me that one of my friends is a user. This person only talks to me when it fits thier schedule. Further more, when we start to finally get close to the issues at hand "total lockdown". "I hate it when you ask "what am I thinking"". how unkind is that. I know I ask that question of people alot, and I am trying not ( Read more... )

So I keep recircling on my life and wondering where everything went wrong. THen it occurs to me, I am an idiot. I have the ability to change everything, but I put myself in situations where it is almost a foregone conclusion that things will go badly ( Read more... )