i dunno wha to do anymore. i dunno how far my feelings go or how far im willing to let it go. i mean ryte now, its pretty serious. up 2 da point where i wuld do ANYTHING to c dys gurl smile, 2 c her happy. even ANYTHING jus to know what it feels lyke to be able to call her myne. its not like im sayin im in love wid da gurl or anything lyke dat, cuz ( Read more... )

imagine life outside, varying environments...your only unknown thing is never needing anything. like, why dont you get hungry or thirsty, or sleepy? its unusual and something that creeps you out, but since you dont understand it, you just accept it. does any of this make sense?

u sed we're jus frens
nd dats how i'll act
u sed we're jus frens
nd dats how it'll be
u sed we're jus frens
buh u jus gotta kno
even tho i wuldnt sho
my feelins r still der

dammit. it happened again. i fall 4 Melissa again, buh she lykes dys other kid who apparently lykes her baq. dammit dammit dammit. i seriously gotta stop fallin 4 my closest frens...it hurts 2 much. Tinna, if ur readin dys 4 sum reason, HI!! lol.

dammit i feel lyke shyt. Erika lyke Bruce, who most likely lykes her baq buh im not shure. normally i wuldnt care at all cuz dats how i am, buh 4 sum reason i cant get it out of my mynd dat sumtin myte happen. shure if sumtin does happen, Erika will b happy, buh ill feel lyke shyt all da fuckin tyme nd i kno dat i wuldnt b able 2 get over her...i ( Read more... )

IM STILL ALIVE!! YAY!!!!!!! well im kinda havin weird thoughts bout me nd AL. idk, its lyke shes not even tryin 2 keep da relationship alive. she doesnt call or even lyke she cares. ryte now, it feels lyke were not even goin out...our relationship is dyin nd im tryin 2 keep it alive buh shes not relli doin netin. *sigh* da one [erson i can relli ( Read more... )

idk wha 2 do. i tink im startin 2 lyke AF and/or FA. idk if my feelins 4 em r cuz of da ryte reasons, or jus because im tryin 2 cope wid da fact dat JF is now wid SJ nd im tryin 2 take my mynd off of her in dat case. its jus so confusin cuz idk da tru reasons 4 my feelins. shuld i move on, or shuld i stay. idk wha 2 do....im so freakin confused.

i myte hafta say dat 2day is now 1 of da worse days of my lyfe. SJ nd JF r goin out. pretty much, im devestated over dys news buh i cant show it round JF or others round me cuz i generally dun want ppl 2 kno wha i feel. shure ders ppl lyke AR nd probably now RR dat i can talk 2 bout dys stuff, buh most of da tyme i keep everyting 2 myself. however ( Read more... )

every v-day, sumtin bad happens 2 me dat makes me realize how fucked up my lyfe relli is. dys year i finally gathered up enuf guts 2 tell JF i lyke her buh den i fynd out dat she probably lykes SJ again, who probably lykes her baq. i hold it in 4 so long, gettin hurt even more da longer i hold it in, nd da tyme i finally tell her i get hurt worse ( Read more... )