Comments | lyndasty: Brief return

lyndasty

Brief return

Nov 21, 2010 23:43

I haven't been around LJ in a while because I've had so much personal stuff to deal with but I wanted to let y'all know something.

Last night, Charm, our first & oldest 4-legged baby, had a seizure. We have no idea why but she's been under the weather lately. Last night, for a while, she didn't know her name, didn't know me or Jason, and didn't ( Read more... )

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domluver November 22 2010, 05:03:22 UTC

Oh wow I'm so sorry you have to go through that Desi. I dread the day we have to do that to one of our pets it's a very sad thing indeed. I'll be thinking of you. Remember I'm here if you need me *hugs*

lyndasty November 22 2010, 05:08:05 UTC

Thank you sweetheart. I've had to be there when one of Dad & Taylor's chihuahuas had to go to sleep and that hurt like hell so I don't know how I'll get through THIS without a complete and total breakdown.

I appreciate the thoughts. *hugs*

moyawyvern November 22 2010, 05:07:42 UTC

I am so sorry. I don't know what else I can say. I know how difficult this is. Let me know if you need anything. *hugs*

lyndasty November 22 2010, 05:11:58 UTC

Thank you. It's very somber around here today. I would ask if you want to see her before...but this place is literally a pigsty because we haven't been able to take Charm outside and I've just stayed in bed with her all day today.

*hugs* Thank you again for the thoughts. We're gonna need them...

kashmir1 November 22 2010, 05:39:52 UTC

Oh, Desi, sweetheart, I am so sorry. It's never easy to lose one of your babies. Please let me know if you need anything, okay? And I know it's going to be so, so hard to let Charm go but I'm sure she'll always know how much you love her and always will and that she'll always love you, too.

*huge, huge hugs*

lyndasty November 22 2010, 07:06:44 UTC

Thank you, Jules. I just...I don't know what to do. I mean I know what we need to do but I'm dreading it. Every time I look at Charmy, my heart just breaks all over again. She's staying close to me and she just looks at me like she's so tired.

Tomorrow...well, later today actually...is gonna be horrible.

About the only thing I need, apart from a way to keep my baby girl with us forever, is just good thoughts and prayers. I don't know how I'm gonna get through this week...let alone the holidays. I was gonna have a family picture made of me, Jason, Charm, Bella, and Wiggles.

Sorry...I'm rambling...

*hugs back*

geeky_ginger November 22 2010, 05:53:13 UTC

Oh sweetheart...I'm terribly sorry. Know that I send all the good thoughts I can your way during this insanely rough time. *hugs*

lyndasty November 22 2010, 07:07:19 UTC

Thank you, Ash. I'm just kinda in denial now... *hugs*

veracity November 22 2010, 06:37:47 UTC

Oh, honey. I'm so sorry. So very sorry. It's a heartsick thing to have to make the decision. All I've got, but you can plenty of, is hugs and love. Text me if you need to talk, yeah? After having Cam for the past year, I don't know what I'd do if I had to make the decision for him. Making my mom's pug decision was a little easier, but Cam is mine. Fully and wholly. I just. I'm so sorry, sweetheart. Wish there was more to be done.

I'll ask my deceased pets, including my first cat whom I had to make the decision on, to keep watch over the rainbow for your little girl and send up the signal so she doesn't get lost.

lyndasty November 22 2010, 07:14:36 UTC

Hey darlin. I don't know how the hell I'm gonna do this. I can't let myself cry in front of Jason because I need to be strong for him. He's already so upset over this.

We had to take one of Dad & Taylor's chihuahuas, their oldest one, to the vet and...that was hard enough, even though I adored that little dog, too. I can't even imagine what it's gonna be like since it's my baby this time.

Yeah I've asked Mouse, my chihuahua that died Sept. '07 to keep an eye out for her on the Rainbow Bridge and to keep Charmy company until I can get back to her someday.

God, what am I gonna do?! How the fuck am I gonna tell a doctor that I'm fine with letting my Charm die?! I can't...that's all there is to it...I. CAN'T.

Okay I'm going to cry and try to rest...

veracity November 22 2010, 08:02:59 UTC

Oh, my baby girl. Wish I could take this pain away from you. It's not easy to say "please do something" when it's yours. I wasn't there for when Bonkers was put to sleep, I was working, but it was the hardest decision to make. Was there when Wrinkles crossed the bridge, too. I was in the room then. And you feel like the worst parent ever to make this decision, but you have to and it eats at you.

(I suggest some lovely heartsick food medicine. Seriously. Something that'll remind of life.)

Call me and cry! Seriously, lovely, you have my phone and you have time...more than most people. You're my people. You can be hurt with me, and I'll let you be as fragile as you need.