“His life had unlimited potential for happiness, insofar as it was an empty, white room. He would fall asleep with his heart at the foot of his bed, like some domesticated animal that was no part of him at all. And each morning he would awake with it again in the cupboard of his rib cage, having become a little bit heavier, a little weaker, but ( Read more... )

its been over a year since I last wrote in this journal. i am now a college student at the college of the holy cross in worcester, ma. ive been through some major shitty times, and ive changed whether ive wanted to or not, and theres not much i can do to change that. there is something wrong with me since coming to this place. my self-confidence ( Read more... )

what a crazy week. short as it was. mrs. lienhieser passed away. i fell asleep more than 6 times during schhool in the past 3 days. we had our last 2 season games last nigh against oveido and winter springs. we lost both games. i had three goals during the oveido game and played set the entirety of the winter spings game. when i woke up this ( Read more... )

"I take a walk down to the shore ( Read more... )

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quick update ( Read more... )

so tired. so so very tired. but still kind of energized in a sick, sadistic kind of way. we lost our game last night to cypress creek. i went to practice this morning. i went to work after practice. i came home, went running and did hw. hardly drank anything in the past 48 hours so kinda passed out from heat exaustion or something. im alright now. ( Read more... )

so...i just checked my email after having been home for like 2 hours and been online for about an hour. waiting for me was an email from columbia university. they sent my rejection letter right to my email. sweet. i feel like a major dumbass. not going to lie ( Read more... )

I've been accepted to the College of the Holy Cross.

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thank u to all u guys who tried to help me feel better the past couple of days. the college thing is destined to be somewhat reoccuring until i hear from each school, so bear with me. sigh. this week is going to be hell...3 games (monday: olympia, Thursday: edgewater, friday: cypress) and all my college decisions. lovely, gromet ( Read more... )