deferred from umich, wait-listed for davidson. maybe i should have cheated my fucking way through highschool like everyone else.

4 years of work. for nothing.

i hate myself right now.

the tears just wont come, and i cant seem to make them. the days are nightmares, i cant wake up from. everything feels so messed up.

i need to see him, to be with him tonite, not push him away like everything else.

why cant i cry? it hurts so bad

things have been odd lately ( Read more... )

man. what a spring break ( Read more... )

spill canvas + OK go + plain white ts + MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK + running + crowd surfing + meeting people + more running + crazy phone calls + laying in parking spaces + bruises + steak and shake + crazy cool kids = love.

that is all.

man, what a weekend ( Read more... )

i got a $10,000 a year merit based scholarship to mercyhurst college in erie, penn. $40,000 total.

damn.

what a friday.

ive mother fucking had it. with everything. i cant take it anymore ( Read more... )

you know..sometimes i dont understand, or will never understand, how it is even fucking possible to have such a riducuously amazing day followed by quite possibly one of the shittiest days. it doesnt make logical sense.yesterday...it all started when i got out of my car to embark on my day...and a bird (a crow to be exact) crapped on my arm. then ( Read more... )

a good day. lovely weather. im so happy. i dont kno what else to say. school was good. friends are amazing. loved ones are amazing. not going to ramble on. but im so filled with love of life, of the day, of one another. its ridiculous. falling asleep in someones arms is quite possibly one of the greatest feelings in the world. esspecially when its ( Read more... )