I wrote this on November 25 in MSWord because I don't have wireless in my house in St. Peters ( Read more... )

stop it. stop it. STOP IT!

I don't really know what I want or what I am doing. I don't think I could deal with a relationship, but then again, it has been so long since I actually had a FUNCTIONING one to be able to compare. The last few months of the thing I had with Jeff was a hot mess we called a relationship for society's sake. So it has been at least 2 years. I've gone ( Read more... )

A ton has happened since the last time we spoke. I don't want you to take offense, but I feel that we are drifting apart. I will still read you on a daily basis (as long as my friends keep updating), but finding the time to contribute to your database has been difficult. Even right now I should be reading, doing homework or something else more ( Read more... )

Thanks Pam.

Now I am just worried you are dead on the side of the road somewhere. Way to make me less LIVID at you.

This weekend has been pretty amazing, I must say. Jayme, Amanda and I got to drive down to San Antonio for a DCI marching show. In the process, we experienced the city (Jayme for the first time, Amanda and I for the second), ate good food and were complete dorks all weekend. It was really nice to escape from the everyday life thing I have going on ( Read more... )

- Has it really come down to this? Am I really that lonely ( Read more... )

I hate the empty apartment, but I don't want to be anywhere else. There is no where else I can go because I will just end up here, alone.

I can't stand it. SIx pants sizes and 70 pounds. I like myself, I do. But sometimes I feel completely obsolete. How can people see me with all of the DDs, size 3's and long legs running around? They can't. The question is how can I like myself if no one else does? What's wrong with me besides being overweight about 30 pounds? And I can't really ( Read more... )