my life is so crazy, sometimes i consider writing a book about my life, but i fear it will be way too long, and i like the mystery of noone knowing what i went through besides me, the only person that will know it all, as much as possible at least, is my lover Nathan. It's great. i love him so much. ppl consider my situation of him being so far ( Read more... )

How can i be expected to keep my thoughts clean when i have the most sexy boyfriend in the world? Lord knows i try my best and i'm no perv, i'm gonna be a puritian when we marry but in the mean time, the sweet vision of him keeps rolling through my head. He's so hot! Things are quite complicated recently and i really just wanna scream! a part of ( Read more... )

GUESS I'VE BEEN REALLY BUSY AS ANYONE WOULD NOTICE, ENOUGH TO SUGGEST THAT THERE'S BEEN A LOT GOING ON IN MY LIFE, BUT NOT REALLY, JUST WORK AND SCHOOL AND FRIENDS AND BOYFRIEND AND FAMILY AND GOD. LIFE'S HECTIC AND STRESSFUL, BUT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO THE SUMMER. YESTERDAY I LOOKED AT NATHAN'S SISTER'S PROFILE ON MYSPACE. I SWEAR I'D DO ANYTHING ( Read more... )

I get a letter from Nathan at least every three days. it's awesome and his words are so beautiful. he is such wonderful person and i'm the luckiest girl in the world to have him as my soul mate. How do i love them? let me count the ways. I've been in this retro rockin' in so hard no matter what comes my way kind of mood for a while now. it only ( Read more... )

Well, today was/is awesome. The whole auroa of today is just peaceful and light and pretty. it's great. everything was going so well, then i got an email from Nathan's sister. it really brought me down. it felt like she was attacking me. i just felt bad. but i guess that's life right? and then there's the james and allie situation. i can't help but ( Read more... )

I'm so sick of tim saying that my mom and dad should've stopped having kids after he was born. Really, i am. i know that he wishes i was never born. he hates me. he sees me as dramatic, stupid, pathetic, and worthless. Annoying and rude, bitchy and problem starter. He's so horrible some times. but then in those times when he's nice or halfway ( Read more... )

I miss Nathan so freaking much. I could cry a river. I hope i get more letters from him soon. i hope he gets mine soon. Whenever my family gets together, i feel a little out of place, incomplete and lost, ussally because the family member i am close to at the time, the one who always makes me feel at home, is gone. but this family outing everyone ( Read more... )

So my english teacher keeps screwing me over on her grading. i hate her she is such a bitch. i walked out on her class today and it wasn't a very pleasant goodbye, i may go see her and talk to her about it, but i just don't see how it can go well. idk. i got two letter from my lover yesterday. it was such a beautiful ending to a totally exhausting ( Read more... )

So yeah. I started this myspace thing and that is y i haven't really written in my livejournal. not that anybody reads mine, but hey, who cares, not me. well, life is hectic and crazy. I branded the hell out of my arm. most people would be disgusted by the healing process right now, but i'll be glad for the scar. it's great. it's like war wound. it ( Read more... )

I'M SO FREAKIN' TIRED. I MISS EVERYBODY SO MUCH. BUT MOSTLY MY NATHAN. I CAN'T WAIT TO HEAR FROM HIM AGAIN. MAYBE HE WILL CALL ME TODAY. IDK. I NEED MONEY. I REALLY NEED MONEY. REALLY, REALLY. BUT YES, I AM SO STRESSED ABOUT SCHOOL, BUT I'M ALSO SO VERY EXCITED, ONLY LIKE TWO MONTHS AND THIS SEMESTER IS OVER!!!!!!!!! HOW AWESOME IS THAT? OH, IT IS ( Read more... )