Comments | lynxyoukai: something to say

lynxyoukai

something to say

Mar 31, 2006 02:22

hmm...my contacts are bothering me today. well, one of them is...but, of course, that's not what i'm here to say, obviously. so, onto what i came here to say...or, more true to it, what i came here to bitch about. i am here to whine about my lonliness. am i really so bad? come on, some of you out there kind of know me...so, am i so bad? would you ( Read more... )

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aiko_chan2006 March 31 2006, 14:03:46 UTC

All I can say is that people will come to you, and believe me...sometimes you definitely don't want them to. >< I'm one of the unpopular people, but I just stay myself and people eventually learn you're not so bad. ^^

lynxyoukai March 31 2006, 20:27:46 UTC

yeah, hopefully someone will eventually come to me...hell, i would be happy to go round three...which means that i would except another person who would leave me for another...if only it meant i would have someoen to hold for a little while...

aiko_chan2006 April 1 2006, 17:19:28 UTC

o.o You shouldn't settle for something like that...That's not the way to look at things! Just be yourself and you'll eventually have people see you as you are.

lynxyoukai April 1 2006, 19:54:18 UTC

maybe i shouldn't settle for that but it's all the love i've known outside of my family...and, even if it wasn't, i want something...even love that isn't forever is still love. i just hate being lonely... be myself? the person i am is distant and most aren't willing to even look off into the distance and, needless to say, go the distance to find someone they don't know...

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dnlr March 31 2006, 15:07:26 UTC

No one but you can change your life; I used to be where you are.

Nothing will trully change until YOU realize that you have absolute power over your life.

I will modify one of my favorite quotes by Ghandi and say: be the change you want to see in your life.

lynxyoukai March 31 2006, 20:29:28 UTC

i know i am the only one who can change my life but i am so scared...i have lived so long with the quote "if it ain't broke, don't fix it," and though the way i live right now isn't the greatest it ain't broke. god, what would my life be like if i only looked toward the future...toward the unknown. i know what happened in the past... oh well, i'm just lonely and haven't got the guts to talk to someone...

ravenofroses March 31 2006, 15:35:30 UTC

heh. i was just going to write something eerily similar to that in my own lj. i know pretty much how you feel. well, not really, seeing as im me and youre you, but you get the idea.

the only difference with me is that.....i talk to the people i find an interest in. that only makes it that more painful when i cant bring myself to tell them how i feel.

heh. wow. this is turning into one bi pity-party. dont let things get you down, mon amie. somebody will turn up someday soon that is your perfect match.

and they wont even mind that youre too shy to talk to them first.

at least, thats what i keep believing. *shrug* at the very least, its a way to keep from going completely mad.

take care of yourself, mon amie.

-raven

lynxyoukai March 31 2006, 20:31:40 UTC

you see, you have more strength than me. you atleast talk to them...maybe if i did that someone could ask me but i have no strength...i just sit back and am lonely. i mean, yeah, you don't tell them how you feel but they might pick it up anyway...with me, they don't even know me as anyone but the wierd guy who stares a little too long and a little to hard at them. i do hope someday the person for me and only me does show up...i really wish it'd be soon. take care of yourself too, mon amie.

ravenofroses March 31 2006, 23:10:01 UTC

things will get better. they have to. you just have to wait it out.

thats the part that sucks royally.....

lynxyoukai April 1 2006, 19:55:38 UTC

i know things will get better...eventually...it is definately the waiting that sucks. i will though...wait, i mean. if i wait long enough something is bound to happen.

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naede March 31 2006, 17:19:21 UTC

you didnt loose me i'll always be here for you to talk to. i really apprieciate you listening to me when i have something to say. so i'd like to repay you some time if you'd like. oh and the swearing thing be my guest it dont bother me....for some reason the Beauty and the Beast song "be our guest" popped in my head....thanks for listening when i really needed you *hugs*

lynxyoukai March 31 2006, 20:33:25 UTC

i still feel that i led you on and i'm sorry for that. i'm glad you're there to listen if i need someone to. i am always here to listen to you...i have trouble talking anyway. oh, i am going to keep swearing, i was just warning people who didn't like it. i will always be here to listen if you need to talk. *hugs back*

naede April 4 2006, 17:02:36 UTC

no you didnt really lead me on too much i always over analyze everything and force my self to belive something is there but it really isnt

lynxyoukai April 4 2006, 20:03:27 UTC

oh, don't think it was just over analyzing that made you think that i had feelings for you because i definately did. it took me a while to work them out and even longer with my mask on, which it usually is. i've taken it off and my mind is a little clearer now. i do have feelings for you...in a sense. i don't really know how to explain them...it isn't love...but it is. i think it is more me trying to latch onto anything that shows me some sort of feelings of love. as i've thought of it i've realized that it isn't really love...it's something else. some perversion of what love is... i am glad to be your friend but i do not love you...am i making any sense?

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drone_dragon March 31 2006, 19:18:03 UTC

LJ usually = Swearing... it's cool, neh.

lynxyoukai March 31 2006, 20:34:10 UTC

well, that's good because i swear quite heavily and i don't plan to stop. this is my journal and i'll talk however the hell i want to.