I think i'm the most nostalgic person I know. Put on my old high school playlist and I'm right back there. happy...in a way. although, i felt that i was never really happy in high school. maybe its just comforting. Everything was so much more simple then. Now, here i am, 25 years old, with a fiancé and two-year-old daughter. I suppose quite a ( Read more... )

So my mom found some gambling receipts in my dad's work bag after he promised he'd quit months ago. bullshit. such bullshit. I wish she could see what he's doing and who he really is. He's been a bullshitter and the most unreliable person i've known in my entire life. i just wish she could realize that. maybe now, after being played so many times ( Read more... )

WHY do you have to be 16 years my senior? I'm am so ridiculously attracted to you. I've also had a glass...or two of wine after work today. Seriously though, what the fuck? You have to flirt with me too? I realize you're in the middle of a separation and all you probably want is sex, but, I just wish you knew how fucking perfect you were. ARE ( Read more... )

another awful fucking day. i can't deal with this anymore and nobody can help me. fucking nobody knows whats wrong with me and its ruining my life. I want this job more than anything right now and this thing, whatever it is, makes me want to quit already. its that fucking bad. I just want to be normal so bad.

this is weird and unusual but definitely welcomed.

flirting with disaster. consequences could be catastrophic. fuck.

For the past week i've been having really terrifying exaggerated dreams about everything coming up in the near or far future. Its starting to really scare me ( Read more... )

Been missing a lot of people lately. Hate it here. My roomate is a deceiving bossy slut. Her boyfriend is cool though. Ralphie keeps me calm. Ralphie's the hamster Alan and I spontaneously bought one night. Supposed to be writing a paper on my religious beliefs...no thanks ( Read more... )

i need to leave everything besides alan.

I totally peed in the lake today.

sidenote: alan's coming tomorrow morning and spending the WHOLE day with me!