i never write on here unless i really need to vent, and heres another one of those times ( Read more... )

i know i haven't written in a long time and I think it'll take WAY to long to write the recap lol but ill give you some. I've realized so many things about myself, like not being friends with Ryan has helped me out a lot. But all I've been thinking about is why I'm still here, I'm not thinking about killing myself all I'm saying is after everything ( Read more... )

wow...its been 10 fraking months since my last entry...i just wanted 2 say that cuz im weird like that

i dont understand that when my friends tell me something like relationship wise i get an insanely bad jelously rage. i end up falling down the depression hole or something like that until i feel so bad i just go 2 sleep. they ask me 4 advice, they ask me 4 help and i would help but its not until after that jelously sets in. i cant help but feel bad ( Read more... )

i kno i havent written in here 4 a long time........well here it goes...........my parents r forcing me 2 go 2 deer lake this year and i said "FUCK YOU! I'm not gonna spend my time babysitting little kids, running around, then with my counsalers running off with the other CITs to do god only knows wat and im stuck with 36 little kids and the fact ( Read more... )

yeah thats right...............my family sux. my dads being an ass as usual my mom thinks that im a lying sack of shit and my clanition from the hospital says im doing good but might want 2 make me stay longer. GOD THIS FUCKING SUX!!!!!!!!! y dont they just let me out of there?! im good now!!!! 4 ppl who knew me b4 i went 2 the hospital i waz actin ( Read more... )

DCF CANCELLED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(4 now @ least) IOP sux as usual, (wat else is new?) lol i kno this is short but g2g ryans hopefully coming over...................later

hey guys, i kno that i havent written in here 4 a long time but i do have news.......................some1 called DCF on my dad and filed an abuse report so 2day @ 1:00 i have 2 go meet the officer and c wat happens. im really nervous cuz idk wat the out-come could b like this time. last time it waz like question after question and they said that ( Read more... )

yeah every1 knos now that i went 2 the hospital and 4 wat thankx 2 max johnson and steve laden but w/e irdc nemore. neways met a kid there, his names Jon and hes a pretty kewl kid we still keep in contact. this may soud weird but i seems like that while i waz around him my depression lifted. I saw him 2day @ IOP not that big but he just loves 2 ( Read more... )

well i just talked in threapy 2day and i found that i have 2 face HIM in court in a few weeks 2 a few months, not fun @ all. + ive had so many dreams of my friends killing him and then he ended up killing me. I JUST WANT THIS TIME OF HELL 2 END!!!! ppl say that there r 2 ways out of it..............say i lied or just decide 2 simply give ^. idk ( Read more... )