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One day she just stopped,

Left, vanished without a word.

And no one's noticed.

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Please be aware that all fics were written under the influence of heavy medication and are basically the rubbish scribblings of a brain-damaged, drug-addled mind.

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Catch-22

Summary: After the events of The Great Game, John's life gets a lot more complicated.

Pairing(s): John/Jim, John/Sherlock, one-sided ( Read more... )

Summary: Inspired by this prompt at the sherlockbbc-fic meme: John is the only person kept in the dark about Sherlock being alive. Mrs Hudson, Lestrade and the others actually know that Sherlock's death is fake. They also know that only John has no idea about it. And for three years, even when they see John living in depression every day, no one ( Read more... )

 Sherlock Timeline of Series 1 and 2 (approx. 18-24 months) - condensed edition, revised 18 June 2012

Here is the timeline of Series 1 and 2 (based on entries from John’s blog, screen captions from the episodes, and various screenshots of dates [on mobile phones, newspaper articles, etc.] from Series 1 and 2):

Note: Now that more information is ( Read more... )

Despite the shit Life has dished out at me, I have always tried to rise above it, no matter how hard, how dark, how fucking impossible it can be. I try to live and have fun and make as profound a contribution to others and to the world as I possibly can ( Read more... )

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It doesn't creep up on me, catching me by surprise,

nor does it hit me, strike me by blunt force, like a sledgehammer or a head on collision.

It just is.

Nothingness,

a black hole.

It's a place, a state of being,

of stifling ( Read more... )

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Everyone seems so far away,

the world and the people in it

fading out, disappearing in the horizon...

What remains?

Memories... monsters.

They came to me when I was a child -

the monsters ( Read more... )

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There is a bullet in a loaded gun.

Right now it seems every little thing

is a finger on the trigger,

pushing, stroking, compelling,

A little more pressure is all it will take

for the story to end.

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There's something to say.

She speaks...to an empty room,

And nobody hears.

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Today: appointment with pain management doctor

Tomorrow: tests/cat scan

Wednesday: appointment with different doctor

Not looking forward to any of it, to say the least. I'm tired, depressed, ill, in extreme physical pain, and very stressed out.