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it's so awkward. i made plans with you over 3 weeks ago. you "penciled me in", you know, between soccer and poker night. why is it that i must "reserve" my boyfriend. i mean, that's really what it is. i have to fucking RESERVE you weeks ahead of time. and it's not even the fact that you aren't coming over, it's that you fucked over my entire ( Read more... )

tyler and i are fighting. half of me wants to scream at him but my vocal chords don't know what to say. the other half wants to kiss and make up. i thought i was falling in love with him, but i always seem to contradict myself. this is the part where i turn to my horoscope. i matched us up (taurus+pisces) and it came back as "an excellent match". ( ( Read more... )

so yesterday i watched tyler's soccer game. they lost 3-2 which wasn't bad at all but he was still really pissed about it. along with rick whom i was afraid to get into the car with. so after the game, matt and i went back to rick's so that he could shower. we ended up waiting until 8 for a pizza and fftl was supposed to go on at 8:15. when we got ( Read more... )

Today I took Brandon Ian Davis's cell phone. The way he reacted was like Ben Stiller in Zoolander ("turn it off? you want me to turn my cell phone off?um? earth to matilda..THIS CELL PHONE IS MY LIFE!") Anyway, apparently he had some important phone calls to make regarding tomorrow night's show and the My American Heart show on Friday. If any of ( Read more... )

WHEN IS FALL G0iNG T0 C0ME?! I WANT T0 WEAR SWEATERS AND MY NEW LEATHER C0AT

tyler is trying out for yet another soccer team tonight; as if he needs to "try out". i love him so but he's so serious when it comes to the whole athletic side of things. he wants to do fall crew now, too. whatever makes him happy, i guess.

i am so happy for alyssa. she ( Read more... )

the yellow lamp light on the black tar road reminds me of the time you pulled my hand away from an incoming car. the horn of the car awakes me from the smiles i carved and the dreams i have of you and me. the car reminds me of the times you drive me crazy and the more i love you for it. your hand plays the same note onto the keys of my heart, ( Read more... )

i love that even though i'm only in your arms for a minute, ten minutes after i walk away, i can still smell you. i can inhale your presence and it feels so so good.

( you don't do it on purpose, but you make me shake. )

there arent enough things to say and nothing ever matters when i say it, it all just falls out of my mouth and when i pick it up it's jumbled and meaningless. just listen a little closer to the "i love you"'s and what they really mean..disregard my pretty scent and the locks of hair hung over my face. i'm trying harder to misplace the truth, but it ( Read more... )

my eyes are simply casting a reflection from my mind, and i cannot truly see what is in front of me; my fingers just follow suite. i searched for something new, only to find all that existed was in my head, or that maybe you couldn't deal with it being in yours. i find you lacking responsibility, but casting the blame on others for the state you ( Read more... )