Today around 5 I'll be adding to the art on my body....I feel as though if I get a tattoo that represents whats bothering me I can move on from it....I no longer have to dwell on the situation at hand because I have a reminder that it happened and it affected me but its done with....if that makes sense. *sigh*   

WHAT THE FUCK!?  *Sigh....the LiveJournal days died out...but I'll probably get back on this often after today....I read two old posts and I was already annoyed....why didnt anyone tell me to shut the fuck up! Daaaamn. Lol Oh well. On to better things....hotter guys and great times! ;)

I'd hate for you to feel the way I do...but that day will come soon enough.

karma karma karma.

Perhaps I was a bit too foward? Maybe I was too into him?? *sigh*

I met someone I completly adore. And I can't have him......Yeah, I have the worst luck and timing in the world. Story of my life.

When I'm with him..I just couldn't be happier. <3 Yeah if you've seen me around with him...you can pretty much tell I'm the happiest person in the world. If I had only met him sooner...I'm sure things would be different ( Read more... )

I can say I'm done with all of this but..ah...I'd only be lying to myself. I love that boy too much! I miss him.

 Today marks day 4 of Albert not talking to me. I called him about a hundred times last night. I'm not even exaggerating. I want to know. I want to know why I'm just a toy to him. Why he can't make up his mind about me. I want to try! I want us to work. But it never will if its a one sided thing. I did ask and hope and pray to have him call me back ( Read more... )

I didnt get what I wanted for my birthday....but i did get alot of things i liked. Albert wasnt here..and well..he didnt even bother to call to say happy birthday...he claims he sent me a text..but i never got it. things havent gotten better between us...he doesnt have time for me..and im just a burden for him....he didnt say it straight out..but ( Read more... )

Last night our conversation started out fine...we were having an actual conversation without any fighting or crying (me)....that all ended the moment he mentioned he had a gf after me the last time we dated....that makes 2 fuckin girls after me! I havent had another boyfriend! Nor have I tried to get one, because I was fuckin sure we would be ( Read more... )

I could tell myself I don't care...and try to convince myself I don't love you...but It would take more out of me than to just admit it and quit bullshittin. I'm in love with him....after all the shit thats gone on..and everything I found out that he doesnt know i know....I cant seem to stop loving him. If anything I want to be with him all the ( Read more... )