im sick and im miserable. i dont normally get sick. throwing up sucks. ahhhhhhfuck.

dear brian ( Read more... )

i got a car. a freakin car. goes vroom vroom. all mine. its red. its a five speed. its a 1990 honda prelude. i named her sebastian. i am so happy. and life is going so well. i really am going to talk to brian. jessica made me feel like i really need to do it. i need to find out whats going on. i need to know what we are. where its going. and if hes ( Read more... )

he bought me a movie!!!! yay. makes me happy. and he thinks im cute. makes me happy. im the only one who bought him a birthday present. it was really special to him. on a high and im not going to come down. we were going to buy a raft and go on the lake but we watched a movie instead.and we played frisbee on the beach and went out for lunch and ( Read more... )

when i look into your eyes ( Read more... )

i update a lot. went to brians again on monday...surprised me so much when he called me and asked me out to dinner...totally ditched brandon to snuggle on the couch with me and sleep...held my hand on the way home...the whole twenty minutes. i dont even know dude. he told me that we were not going to hang out...AND THEN WE DID! i wish i knew what ( Read more... )

i think im getting sick. and it sucks. because everybody else around me has gotten sick. and i have been so happy in my healthiness. so i guess it was only a matter of time before it was my turn. oh well. backing off of brian for a bit. that will make the good times even better. i dont want him backing away again. it would only hurt too much. we ( Read more... )

just need to add something about that last entry...he called, we had a great night. he bought dinner, tickets to the movie, popcorn and soda, the whole thing. he held my hand, put his arm around me...who wouldnt get confused??????????? i even get goodbye kisses. wonder if i will get those at work. he even offered to let me watch aladdin because it ( Read more... )

im confused ( Read more... )

im sitting here waiting for someone to call. i know that he is going to. its just the waiting until he calls part thats hell. we are going to see sin city tomorrow...if he ever calls.