Notice how this is almost always the titles of my entries ( Read more... )

I keep doing this, getting myself angry over things. I wonder if I have a reason to get myself worked up over stuff. I'm trying really hard to start turning my head off and my attitude off. I just am so...hurt. Confused. Hopeful that I'm just crazy.

Maybe things will look up. I suppose I have to stop obsessing and start praying.

It's like I enjoy feeding myself pain and heartache. I somehow manage to be very happy for quite some time. Then I just hurt myself. But I can't stop thinking about what my mom said the other day... But I just can't say. "Could you stop that please? It really upsets me." That isn't fair at all ( Read more... )

Sooooo yea. I haven't written in ages, not like anyone really wonders what goes on in my life ( Read more... )

(Something on my mind, something I pulled from my personal journal. I've just been doing some thinking is all ( Read more... )

Thank you everyone for all the lovely birthday wishes! It made me smile and that was one of the greatest gifts I could have ( Read more... )

Why is it that at any given time of the day I can live within a fantasy world in my head? I can make stuff up, create truths from something that never quite happened, convince myself of things, write stories, poems, and other good things in my head? How is it that I can convince myself that my life is a movie and that at that one point, the ( Read more... )

Yesterday I started to get sick and it was terrible. My ears were ringing at Oniquia's bonfire and I had to leave before it barely got started. I felt terrible. My head started to hurt, and sleeping was hell. My body just hurt in general. So today I thought I'd be fine and went to Gram's for our Mother's day thing but I just barely ate and wanted ( Read more... )

I have loved the rain today. It's been really nice. It was comforting. I had today to sit and chill. I played Paper Mario on the Wii for five hours. I really like it! It's so much fun ( Read more... )

I'm chilling here eatting a blue popsicle like I haven't in ages. It's so yummy ( Read more... )