This is not my decision, I am being forced to do things to make others happy.
And i just keep silently swallowing it down. All i want to do is cry!

Last night I had a dream about 2 of my ex boyfriends ( Read more... )

I am bitter and I hate the holidays.

Today I am genuinely happy.
I wonder how long this feeling will stay around for-without distracting my sobriety,that is

things are going pretty smooth for me as of late.
im working two jobs and saving all my pennies for my car.
im proud of myself!
let the good times roll.

I'm excited to go home.
To have my own space for my own things.
It's been awhile.
I hate sharing...anything.

[what was I thinking lastnight?]
I guess some male attention is better than none.
But who it was from is just beyond ridiculous.
Let's be real.
NO MORE!

calming down.
don't lose touch.

I've never needed you so much.
Please,Please be there for me dad.

Seriously considering suicide.
I have nothing and no one left.

Man,someone was on the look out for me today ( Read more... )