Fuck life if it is gonna be like this. Is it too much to as to wanna be treated fairly and want people not to hurt me.

I'm still depressed because of Richard. When I went over to his house on Sunday he sat there and played video games. We don't get to spend much time together. So i begged him to go to the beach with me. and we didn't have much time and he only went to Wesco to get me a water while I was locked out of my car because he wanted a smoke. so he ( Read more... )

hey people. The weekend is over and tuesday is comming fast. I am having nightmares about the procedure on tuesday for my I.C. even though I am probably gonna have to have many more procedures in the future now. It scares me though I don't like hospitals ( Read more... )

Ok now Richard isn't paying much attention to me and when we are together he doesn't wanna do anything. It's making me depressed because I feel lonely. Doesn't any guy actually care or even try? It is getting me so upset because he promises me things and says things and gets my hopes up just to be let down. HE doesn't follow through with his ( Read more... )

hey peeps I am trying to get rid of my gerbils before I kill them or the cats do. I had put the top of their cage in a different bottom that was deepeer but it was also wider so that they wouldn't throw their bedding out and they were able to escape from that one and eat my clothes. They ate up a brand new skirt that I had jsut gotten for my ( Read more... )

hey peeps, My birthday was yesterday and it was so fun. Rufie was over and so was Richard. We had cake and hung out. Then Rufie had to leave but Richard came with me and my family to the Steve Miller concert at Summer Celebration. It was a good concert. Before the concert Richard, Spanky and I went on some of the carnival rides. They were ( Read more... )

hey peeps, I think i'm almost fully better now so yea. I'm happy now. At least i'm able to do normal stuff. Although I still get tired easier thatn normal but that's normal to still be going on. I am going to have to take my exams late for 3 of my classes but it shouldn't take long. I don't know when I'm gonna be able to work though. but ( Read more... )

things just suck. I can't go out and be a regular 16 year old. I have been stuck in this house for a month now only leaving to get my blood drawn or go to the doctors. I have gotten my blood taken so much that if you looked at my arms you would think that I do drugs. I honestly don't think I'm gonna get fully better. I think my body has already ( Read more... )

dude I just got flowers sent to me from my Aunt Donna and Uncle Gale. They are even Ray & Sharon flowers! They're so pretty. I'm so happy. I think that was so sweet. Thank you guys.
Luv always,
Missy

well, as you may see from the subject of this one, things aren't any better. My liver is still hurting and somehow i got mono and it seems that my family is almost mad at me for it. Well, my dad and sister anyways. I get lonely here alone but i don't wanna get anyone else sick too. I feel like giving up. I doubt I can get my credits now because ( Read more... )