wow. where to start ( Read more... )

i haven't updated this thing in months. i don't know why. i just couldn't keep writing the same pathetic entries using different words ( Read more... )

i want something new, but i fear that i'm looking in the wrong places. truth be told, i know i am. the question is...do i care ( Read more... )

you make me happy.

things are ch-ch-changing...and i'm going to embrace it. no more running. my legs are too tired.

no more comfort zone. i am ready.

smile for me.

friday- picked up robbie and went to the tsunami relief concert. it was alright. i met a couple of really cool girls and hung out with some awesome kids so that was fun. oh yes and i had starbucks...my favortie. i thought i was going to die on the car ride home because of the snow. i couldnt see anything. it was pretty scarrry. when i safely ( Read more... )

i am overwhelmed ( Read more... )

:-D

i had an awesome weekend. sword fights, hate songs, pictures, pizza places, disco, almost getting lost, random malls, meeting funny/really cool kids, rockin out to horrible music....ahhhh goood times.

later kids!

i just re-read my last entry.

it's funny how fast things change...

well i'm done with blaming myself for everything. i could never cause that much damage alone.

you know what else is funny... you were so optimistic, but look...you gave up just like i always knew you would.

as i was driving home today it finally hit me. I ran away from it all. I always run away. theres no one to blame but myself...no scapegoat..nothing. i make my decisions so confidently, but i face the repercussions full of regret. the life i knew is gone. i feel so empty. but what the hell am i saying, this is what i wanted right ( Read more... )

brittany just left...we had some good conversations. i told her some things that i've never shared with anyone before...and never expected to. it's good to know i'm not the only one who feels this way...i was beginning to worry. i still dont know whats going on. or why. im sick of trying to make myself happy. it never works ( Read more... )