she's dead ( Read more... )

i guess i used to be really depressed for many reasons.
so that many things made me sad.
the tiniest things.
and i was so stuck.
but i guess this is just proof that.
things get better.

i never feel that way anymore.
and i'm so thankful for that.

yes
i'm alive
i just moved on from lj

also,
my name is benjamin now.

transitioning has been the highlight of my life.
this is what was always missing.

you can find me at obamas-rap-solo on tumblr if you want.

if anyone is even still here.

don't you ever ever leaveand it makes me sad that it was a nice thing,for a short time ( Read more... )

for you

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i dreamt you were a monster ( Read more... )

this journal is henceforth 
friends only.

^___^

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if i had it my way, i'd slit your throat
 with the knife that you left in my back
all this guilt all this shame all this regret

GET THE FUCK OFF MY JOURNAL ( Read more... )

this morning, i feel...

guilty
hungry
tired
lacking
sore
achey
sore
tired
sore
...
headachey
i feel like chainsmoking

i feel empty and full of everything and nothing at the same time.

I really wish I could drop

If I had the heart. If I didn't want to stick around. I just want to get back at... No I don't I'm just having a temper tantrum.

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and it really hurt me that my best friend comes over the other night and i mention my birthday and she's like 'when is your birthday?' and i was like... it was on friday ( Read more... )