it has been sixteen weeks since I’ve written. it's been so long because i haven't allowed myself to feel anything. a lot of things have happened, to say the least. somehow i have managed to block it all out, push it all down. after the changes in friendships, relationships, and the deaths that have occurred, i barely recognize myself anymore. i ( Read more... )

i've been living in ocean city for a little while now and i absolutely love it. the apartment is so nice, and i can't wait til my roomates move in. i think living with 5 boys will be an interesting change of pace. at least they won't be bitches and talk about everyone behind their backs. i hate that. a lot. i came back to salisbury last night to ( Read more... )

so FINALLY, it's official. i am moving in with mary. could not be happier. wish it were like... today.

so last night around midnight, after drinking for a couple hours... we decided it would be a good idea to go to virginia. so sean adams, mary cox, ryan mello, and i went on the longest (and best) booze cruise ever. when we got there we went out on this dock where you can see the stars really well, but they weren't out last night. it was FREEZING, ( Read more... )

i am really going to miss you.

our air conditioner is broken and it is literally one million degrees in our house. i think i'm dying.

last night was drew's birthday so we had a few people over and it actually ended up being a really fun night, although i am definitely regretting it this morning. i got to sit in on "guy talk" last night and after hearing how they talk about girls i don't think i ever want to have sex again. i never knew so many girls were sluts. crazy. p.s. guys ( Read more... )

i'm going to be living with 5 guys this summer in an apartment with 3 rooms and one bathroom. SWEET.

at least they're hot.

started macky's tonight. loves it.

vegetarian hot dogs are delicious. who would have thought. so, it hasn't been as hard as i thought it would be. probably because i never ate red meat to begin with. we all went to chic fila today though, that was pretty tough, but worth it i think. carly and i went grocery shopping tonight and bought all new food. it's kind of exciting trying lots ( Read more... )

so i have been "dating" this guy for a while now and i think that he wants it to get serious, and i'm really scared. which is so weird because i really thought i wanted a boyfriend. and now that he pushing me to get serious... now i'm questioning what i want. i know the reason is that i've been hung up on erik for so long i forgot how to be in a ( Read more... )