I feel very pointless. I want to get fucked up. I havent for so long, cuz i told myself that i am gonna fuck up my goals if i continue along this path. I eventually stopped, and im like 4 months sober. Im proud of myself. but then i keep myeslf at home so that i wont drink and get high, it makes me feel lonely. Graduation seems like 50 billions ( Read more... )

I feel physically drained. My body is so tired, but my mind is so alert, but is also tired. I cant sleep no matter how tired i am. Maybe it is my house. its too noisy, always busy. I need a new engine for my car its another $1100 for me to pay for. God i seriously have to pay for everything. yeah its good for my mom, but makin me stress over money ( Read more... )

god im so frustrated. Today is my grandmas bday, and i want to go see my cousins that i havent seen for so long. I worked till 3am in the morning last night, and now i have to work at 5. i called taco bell to have today off and they told me, i can only get the day off if someone can cover my shift. so i called people and no one would do it. im so ( Read more... )

I hate it when i slack off on my credit work. then close to sign out week, i do it. then my whole weekends are like doing my credit work. it sucks. you know whats funny? Gustavo called me to kick. this guy hasnt talked to me since he asked me out which was like new years. all of a sudden he calls me. its funny. Hella people called me to kick it, ( Read more... )

bleh. i feel very full. and i ate trail mix and a bowl of noodles, then went to sleep for 5 hrs. I had a doctors appointment, and they took my blood. they filled up 7 long tubes of blood, i swear it was like a pint, then they missed my veins like 50 times. but its ok. it doesnt anymore. i seriously think gettin your blood drawn hurts more then a ( Read more... )

i called my doctor today. i told her how i felt, then she was like "it seems like we need to do some blood work on you." then she talked to my mom and told my mom that most likely that i have high blood pressure. so i have to go in sometime this week. i dunno when i forgot. wednesday? yeah ill ask my mom. i slept in till like 2:30 today. and i ( Read more... )

I feel like my body is shutting down on me. I am constantly tired, and when im always tired, i get depressed. Even when i sleep after school it doesnt help because then im tired again. I just need a big cry. I have nothing to cry about it. This is what i dislike about myself, is that i always feel like i have to do something and if i dont, then i ( Read more... )

"I've got it all, but I feel so deprived ( Read more... )

Things just feel so unhappy right now. I feel like im wasting my life away. Things never go right for me, and when i think it does, it doesnt. I switched out of Juanita because it was too much for me, and switched into BEST thinkin it would be much better for me. now its just too easy for me, and i dont want to be there anymore. i seriously just ( Read more... )

"you need to stop being so fuckin depressed all the time, shit. And asians are drunk, all of them? haha yea aight whatever bitch u need to make yiur life happy and not be so mad and shit all the time. damn bitch get a better life, fuck u ( Read more... )