First thing this morning after a slight drinking session last night, I had lots of things I wanted to get off my chest. Now, six hours later, they seem to have subdued. I cannot tell you why. All I can remember from the earlier, headache driven moments of this morning is commenting that my life feels like a scene from Alice in Wonderland. I ( Read more... )

I have been a lazy girl, and haven’t updated in such a long time. For all my avid readers *sniggers*, I apologise. There has been quite a lot happening, but unfortunately, my computer is not as accessible as it once was. I have been spending much of my free time at James’. It is quite difficult that he lives so far away. I know myself, not so ( Read more... )

Ok, so I really need to come back here some time soon and update, ‘cause a shit load has been happening, but I desperately need to get ready for work, so I will just post this for now. Good Luck for 2005!!!

He is me

and I, him

our bodies mesh

a tangle beneath the sheets

our minds unite

with a simple word or sight

his touch is ecstasy:

a sweet ( Read more... )

This month has been so full of confusion, and altering emotions. It is hard to keep up with whether I am coming or going. So much has been going on and it is messing with my mind. I tell you, I am currently incapable of making a decision that has any amount of importance attached to it.

My first mistake was getting involved with Simon the glassy… ( Read more... )

I have learnt something interesting about myself in the last few days - something that has surprised me. I realised that I do possess the strength to say no to other people and put my own needs first. I learnt that it is ok to be me, and act in whatever manner I please, because when I let my hair down, and stop worrying about how other people see ( Read more... )

 Just a little summary of a wick'd evenin':

Alcoholic Beverages consumed:

2 glasses of Jade and Lemonade

15 Bourbon and Cokes

1 Cowboy shooter     …..man was my stomach fucked the next day…..

Friends who I am eternally grateful to for coming:

Jade, Johnee hector, Ryan, Emily, Lisa, Justin, Evan, Tom (& Alice and Kelly for showing up without the ( Read more... )

It’s funny how one stupid thing going not he way you planned it to can spoil everything else that’s good. I hate being a financially independent uni student. It sucks!! Bring on my birthday!!! this time tomorrow I am going to be ecstatic about going to THIRSTY MERC!!! argh!!!!

here I stand
with my heart in my hands
you just walk right by

I will not cry

here I stand
half a heart in my hands
you glance at me

I am not free

here I stand
a shattered heart in hands
you walk right on by

I can’t help but cry

I feel like the character from Monty Python, or Black Adder, whichever one it is where they are kicking Shakespeare for the torture he puts on thousands of students. I hate Shakespeare. No, erase that, I hate studying.

This morning began in the most dismal fashion. It was cold and wet outside, and I was tired. The previous two days had been filled with study and work; when I wasn’t studying, I was feeling guilty about my lack of it. Today didn’t look like it was bound to be much of an improvement. I was woken earlier than I hoped, in a fashion which I would ( Read more... )