as of today, I'm no longer smoking.
this is going to suck, but I'm tired of coughing up a lung in the morning.
I mean, shit, I'm down to a pack a day.
how the fuck do I start smoking a pack a day in only two and a half weeks?

ugh.

wish me luck.

a lot of times it seems like everyone in the world is committing mass suicide ( Read more... )

hung out with the gauge kids 'til 6:30 in the morning.
they've got more new songs that should be pretty sweet once they fix everything.
I wish I was in florida with my friends, having a beer and smoking a cigarette..
didn't get to hang out with james like I was hoping to.
I'm in a "need a girl" mood.

holy crap I don't want to go to work tomorrow.

sometimes a little more than a week can feel like years.
I miss subtleties and blatant remarks.
I miss talking about bullshit.
I miss bullshitting talk.
I do miss you.
I hope you're feeling well and finding yourself.

late night with the gauge boys.
learned some things about various guys in the band I didn't know about before.
you would never have figured those kids had an actual sense of humour (besides seth, of course).
lots of laughing late night at the country sun.
fun times.

hopefully I'll get to hang out with kate today, and then work on more designs.

3 day weekend.
missing conversations with someone, but I'm holding up.
maybe that'll be different someday, we'll see.

new thrice tracks leaked, same with with honor's new album (which doesn't come out for a month), and I've got both.
I want to go back to grand rapids.

tonight ( Read more... )

so a friend needs my help, but definitely in a way I would never have imagined.
this is strange, and I don't know how I'm going to react to it emotionally, but at the same time, I'm more than happy to do it.
this will be a weird time for me, very weird.

godspeed, s.
I hope you find what you are looking for.

if only I could hope to make you breathe again darling ( Read more... )

lungs won't fucking stop aching. probably the cigarettes ( Read more... )