fuck december.
it's cold, lonely.

exhausted.

cold weather makes me want to bake.
i've made pumpkin creamcheese muffins,
peanut butter cookies, and brownies.

i don't hear from him for 8 months...
but he's called 5 times in the past week.

leave me alone!

i'm okay.

i'm alienating my closest 'friends'.
i'm in a funk, a rut, a bad place.
i'm lonely, sad, bored, confused.
that makes me difficult to get along with.
and i guess i don't blame them.

WHOA.
its monday.

the past two months have been a blur.

what am i doing with my life?

ive been listening to saves the day, ha.
i feel like im in high school.