The internet on my laptop gave out. That's my luck with electronics, they just decide to quit. Well, I'm not going to be online much for quite a while, so I figure I'm giving up on LJ for now. I should have long, long ago, but something kept telling me to come back and type more. Oh well, I say, it's just a silly little place for my thoughts; so ( Read more... )

Sometimes, when you're the most afraid, the best things on Earth can happen. All that building up of stress and fear, and in one instant *poof* gone; and I had a good time for the rest of the night o.o Even today, I was all happy and giddy, like a huge weight was lifted off of my heart. I was even joking around without any kind of malice toward ( Read more... )

I changed my IM name. Don't know why, really. I'm probably going to change my e-mail too. It'll just all be under Madame Dei. It's easier that way, and I won't have so much spam and stuff. So if anyone wants the new names...just ask I guess (even tough technically I just said them ( Read more... )

Well, I conquered my essay and I was just glad I learned something. Now, I just need to find some solutions to the causes I looked up, and life'll be good. Is there such things as fears of phobias? If so, I have a phobia-phobia right now ( Read more... )

I've been neglecting lj. Not that I feel bad about it, really, in fact I realize that it makes little difference. I might just say "hell with it", but then I'd just be giving up some more. feh ( Read more... )

I don't post lyrics often, but I just felt like it right now ( Read more... )

Every now and then I have an uplifting post. That's what this is ( Read more... )

I'm finding comfort in the pages of books. It's how I lived my life from the time I moved from Riverside in 4th grade until sometime in the middle of my senior year in high school, at which point I actually found a life. I still love to read, though; that could never dissipate. I find myself pulling back from life, away from people. It makes me ( Read more... )

My soul's somewhere else, somewhere so far away, I wonder if I'll ever catch up. I want to grab it, pin it down, and tell it that it's not that easy and to stop wishing. My head knows what I'm trying to say, but maybe that's because it just wants to find a reason to despair. These books seem to be my only salvation in this, 'cause there's no way to ( Read more... )

Skipped classes today. It felt pretty good to just use the day to relax...and work fervently on pages 2 and 3. I'm getting the hang of it a bit more, but with the detail I want, I'll never be satisfied ^^ haha oh well, so goes it ( Read more... )