i completely forgot i had this.

it's like my mom said to me this afternoon, on the drive to the hospital ( Read more... )

well... it's almost half way through july. i thought this month would go slower, i thought i'd be out a lot more, i thought a lot of things would happen differently, but i guess that's just life.. maybe i was expecting a repeat of last summer? with all the complicated emotions and seductions and who knows what... maybe i was looking for something i ( Read more... )

oy vey. i don't even know where to begin. i guess with the dissapearance of my boyfriend. while i was in jamaica(i've been in jamaica for the past week), i got an email from him saying he was leaving for a 6 day backpacking trip.. he said he knew i wouldn't be happy about it, but that he felt like he had to go anyways. so now he's off, he didn't ( Read more... )

i guess i've either been too busy or not busy enough to write things here... i don't know which one ( Read more... )

the jealousy issue needs to be solved.. i can't keep living like this. i'm jealous when my friends hang out with other friends more then me, i'm jealous when max flirts and touches other women(not entirely wrong of me), i'm jealous all the time, and it's horrible...i don't really know how to cure myself of it, but i know that if i don't, it will ( Read more... )

i feel like a horrible person... sometimes i hate myself for making him so sad.. i talk to him thinking that i'm going to be the victem, and when it turns out to be the other way around, i feel absolutely horrible ( Read more... )

Come back to me, who wait and watch for you ( Read more... )

i think i'm a little bit too paranoid ( Read more... )

so i saw max today and now he's at work. he'll be leaving tonight for north carolina, and i'll be seeing him when he gets back. id on'tk now when that'll be, a week, a week and a couple days, who knows ( Read more... )