it's funny how everything has to fall apart in life just so that it can all fall back into place but be 100 million times better ( Read more... )

it's almost 1, and i'm getting up by 5:30, but i can't seem to fall asleep, i just keep running things through my mind, the good and the bad, but the good ones i'm really having a hard time taking my mind off of and it's keeping me from sleep, oh well, there's not much i can do about it except keep trying to fall asleep, not that it's going to ( Read more... )

early retirement? call me if you want to know what i mean. you should know my cell, if you don't, check my away message, it'll be on that.

lyrics game, no cheating, you know how it goes ( Read more... )

i was going to do this whole entry on how nye blowout was boring b/c no one was there that i wanted to hang out w/, but in retrospect, i'm glad i went b/c it made me realize many things... one thing in particular that i'm glad i finally realized, i'll post it in a friends only entry soon... and there were some good times during it. i don't feel ( Read more... )

the reason i was so reminiscent up at my aunts house is because the last time i was there is when everything was falling into place. our relationship was just about to begin and i had multiple long talks on the phone w/ her, and when i walked back into the room all of it just came right back to me as if it were yesterday. even just thinking about ( Read more... )

staying up here at my aunt's house in wisconsin is bringing back so many memories that i don't want to think about right now. i'll go into more depth later. call my cell. 487-6610.

i hate memories. the only thing they're good for is making my heart ache even more.

so, today would've been 5 months had emily not broken up with me. i've had that nice thought running through my mind all day. pain still shoots throughout my body when i realize that it's probably never going to be that way again. i know, i know, things will get better... i'll find somebody else... but right now i don't feel like things could ever ( Read more... )

things seem to be pulling me in one direction for what i should do, but i'm still so unsure of everything and what i should actually do if i decide to follow through w/ it. call me if you feel so inclined as to try to help out in any way ( Read more... )