I look at everyone's entrys and am empathicly filled with the sadness that is going on all around me. I close my eyes and pray to Pan, and he gives me the answer
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I am ok Jakk. Well, no, not really. But I will be someday. I am mourning the loss of one I loved. And I am worried I will never love again. Right now it seems impossible to feel the magic I feel with him... and he felt with me. I seem to have a high propensity for falling in love and not falling hand in hand with whomever. In other words, I fall alone.
Ah, but the good news is I have firends like you who remind me and affirm me and prod me to see - I am wonderful. Just right now my wonderful is lonely. I know you and I differ in some ways on how we see love. I like your version - but I like mine, too. I miss holding and being held. I miss knowing we who were two are one in the moment. I miss the joining of souls.
Don't worry. I still laugh. The laughter may not be as frequent, but when it happens it fills me with hope.
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Did you ever learn much about the Temple of Psychick Youth?
Genesis P.Oriddge of Psychic TV/Throbbing Gristles "philosphy/religion"
Its sometimes similar to what you think...a lot about sex magick. I dated a boy who studied that stuff..
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(BTW- You are addded my dear friend - Care to reciprocate?)
Cyn
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Strength from pain...
I am ok Jakk. Well, no, not really. But I will be someday. I am mourning the loss of one I loved. And I am worried I will never love again. Right now it seems impossible to feel the magic I feel with him... and he felt with me. I seem to have a high propensity for falling in love and not falling hand in hand with whomever. In other words, I fall alone.
Ah, but the good news is I have firends like you who remind me and affirm me and prod me to see - I am wonderful. Just right now my wonderful is lonely. I know you and I differ in some ways on how we see love. I like your version - but I like mine, too. I miss holding and being held. I miss knowing we who were two are one in the moment. I miss the joining of souls.
Don't worry. I still laugh. The laughter may not be as frequent, but when it happens it fills me with hope.
Janice
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Oh, and then there's this
Big Boy don't like it when the Latin gets messed up :)
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Anjala, who just wants to have "some good old-fashined church"
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