Am I not supposed to care because I do today as much as I did yesterday; it pains me, and here I am feeling isolated and alone. What am I suppose to do? Who am I anymore? Does it matter? I feel more and more like people don’t matter that they’ll only let you down in the end so why should I bother with them except as means to my ends, that’s what I ( Read more... )

I’m supposed to describe how I feel; the challenge in this is describing It without feeling it because to feel it is to start the cycle again. At this point it’s too late for that, today was a bad day and I think the Ativan just kicked in, almost had another breakdown again. What it feels like? I’ve been here before, I’ve been here all my life…but ( Read more... )

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Pick 20 movies/anime/video games/comic books/literary works and put their summaries from Better Than It Sounds. WITHOUT CHEATING have your friends guess.

1.) A teenage boy goes to a fair. Apocalypse ensues. (VG) (Chrono Trigger - alkazar )
2.) The only thing stopping Giant Robot Cthulhu from turning us all into cyborg zombies is one Raised By Wolves martial ( Read more... )

Life has gotten very...strange.

I have a problem letting go.
It seems I can never be satisfied.

I want to tear the world apart

I'm in an odd mood and must write it out. I've been home for 2 days now after 3 weeks away. And before that it was another 3 week gap. Things are different here, it's not the same. I don't know whats changed, is it the town or is it me? I think it's me ( Read more... )

I'm not an angry person, everyone who knows me can attest to this. I don't know how many of them have seen me truly angry but right now I'm fucking livid. I'm just so pissed off at everyone and everything anymore. I've burned two bridges now, two people I hope to never see again. But I compare where I am to where they are and it makes me angry ( Read more... )

Just an FYI. I got screwed over again, by a person whose screwed me over before in the past ( Read more... )