I'm disappointed in myself. I'm fed up with not dating mark. I really wish he'd just go to graduate school at John Carroll because I'm beyond selfish. I have never been so happy and so unhappy with one person. It's driving me mad but I'm not ready to stop it just yet. Things were simple and now its all complicated and I feel like I have to tiptoe ( Read more... )

i'm hammered and dont even like livejournal, i'm just so fucking frustarated.

i fucking miss what was.

I think suicide is the most selfish, disturbing, and saddest thing anyone can do.  Especially teenage suicide.  Even if life is tough, it is ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS worth living.  I don't think people realize it is forever. Once you kill yourself, you are NEVER coming back.  You will NEVER be able to get your life back or see anyone.  You're gone. You ( Read more... )

downward spiral

I just wanted to yell at Frank to get up at the wake today. It didn't hit me until i saw him in the casket that he is really gone.
RIP Frank Kinmonth, you lived a good life but it was so too short buddy<33

Summer is absolutely fantastic! I'm not even sure why, but its so much fun so far. I'm working everyday so I can make bank and have money in school next year. On my free time I pretty much just hang out with Ali and Mallory. I'm in 2 basketball leagues and still love it and can't wait for the season to start at school. I've been in a car for about ( Read more... )

I want to go back to school.
I didn't know it would just end as soon as chris left. I thought it would fade slowly. This is so fucking weird. See you in 3 1/2 months I guess cause i doubt you're going to go to erie the same time as me like you said. Christ I feel dumb.

If you were to ask me how i feel, i would say i don't fucking know. And its so weird.
I don't get how 2 weeks ago i said that lets just keep doing what we're doing and when schools out end it to chris and he agreed. Then like an hour later when i wasn't hanging out with him anymore he texts me saying he's done because he was falling and didn't want ( Read more... )

Lets see, (i'm doing this with bullets to get to the point)

• JV was cut from basketball, BUT I got asked to play varsity, so I'm still on the team.
• I've been ignoring aaron because I'm tired of his shit and don't want to date him
• School is really tough this semester.
• I got black out drunk last saturday from reindeer fucker+soco+smoking, and jason and ( Read more... )

I don't really know what to update about, but I'm bored so here ya go:

Have you had sex with more then 25 partn​ers?​​​​​​​​
aids.

Do you think​ the last perso​n you kisse​d is nice?
aaron is driving me crazy lately. I think i'm gonna ditch him.

Have your frien​ds ever rando​mly stopp​ed by your house​?​​​​​
Yes and by my dorm room all the time.

Who ( Read more... )