it was pretty amazing, i made the voyage back to lj after a very very long time away (long enough that the quick-access to the site wasn't there in the url field place! that's what you call it right) and one of the first entries i looked back over was from august 17th, sooooo long ago, a very distressed and frustrated and hurt and confused entry ( Read more... )

(i wrote this tonight (around 10:15) in an email to my friend who is like a little sister at the same time ( Read more... )

If i could make myself cry at any moment, now would be my choice ( Read more... )

"k.t. ? .... you're flowering."

"what, mom??"

"you're flowering. you're more beautiful and alive than ever."

(sunday after church. i had been running around and spinning around sign poles with dylan -- adorable little boy in our ward -- and she said this right when i got into the car. and i liked it. i could feel in myself what she was saying and ( Read more... )

do they ever really help, or just screw things up worse?

"...i was just articulating really badly the worry that had been eating at the back of my mind when i was at home thinking (a dangerous pasttime, i know) that i bug you or overwhelm you or suffocate you with my ... intenseness ... because i have such a need for expressing how i feel and ( Read more... )

i feel stuck in a deep hole of mud. LOTS of laundry awaits me. nothing excites me or makes me happy. my best/closest friend (at home now, at least) has many many other very close/best friends she can/does call whenever she wants, several of whom are boys. i've never been able to be friends with boys. i examined why: in elementary school, at the age ( Read more... )

i'm almost tempted to wait till tomorrow just so it will be 2 exact months since my last one.. but that might be a little silly. and a little hard, since i'll be on a plane tomorrow to new york.

i just found my cat (cleo) sleeping in the coat closet in the office. she's been pretty sad and lonely since we've been gone like the ENTIRE month.. plus i ( Read more... )

right. mooching was never truly known on the earth before what i am about to accomplish with this post ( Read more... )

WALLFLOWERS FREE CONCERT TONIGHT!!!

w/ guests john butler trio & kathleen edwards

s.f., piers 30-32
starts at 4 pm

more info http://www.kfog.com/Events/kaboom/2005/default.asp

kristie was just writing the name of a park for her french hw: i suggested lucchessi.

then i said, "OPEN THE DORR!" o'dea style.