Nobody live journals anymore.

There is wanting something and then there is really wanting something. We have a bunch of shit going on inside of us that is not at a consensus. I am going to have fire inside of me until I die.

I know that.

Just nevermind.

I don't mean it like it looks.

I'm still not to a point where I feel like it exists to actually be close to someone as opposed to just pretending. I know that's because somewhere I actually still believe the only legitimate thing is a soulmate and that a soulmate exists, and there isn't another side for me to balance that out with ( Read more... )

for example, sometimes when you are browsing facebook and you see that someone has posted a picture of an old map that they want for their wall, you'll think to yourself when are we going to get that map for the big empty wall space above the couch like we always talk about, I keep forgetting to do that until you remember that you broke up a year ( Read more... )

I think I'm having some kind of flashback trigger because there is no reason to be so emotional over this but I am totally devastated. It's retarded and I don't even know how to explain it ( Read more... )

I AM SO MOTHERFUCKING SICK OF SITTING AROUND AND TWIDDLING MY THUMBS, THINKING ABOUT DOING THINGS!!!!!

FUCK. OFF.

I'M SO MAD.

if I poured my heart out it would probably just seem like a giant pile of sand.

DAMN IT WHY DID I DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thinking about now is going to be fun when I am the grandmother I was born to be.

I'm sorry to be so astringent sometimes,
come here and let me give you some honey... Honey.

wink
wink

nudge.